twenty seventeen part 2 bc i emotion a lot

that sinking feeling in my heart

i don't have the words to express how i feel
heart beating with worry and nerves
body heating up and cooling down too too fast
wishing beyond everything i could just do it

that i could text you, love you,
but i can't.

i'm so full of doubt
and i listen to others far too much
and i'm so jealous of you, of her
i can't do anything

it's the feeling that leaves me crying and numb
and the feeling that makes me want to do
something
to feel again.