Team 10 imagines and prefrences

req- Aj Mitchell: space

Aj's pov:
I messed up so badly.
i told her i needed space. she was willing to become a star, but i shut her out of my galaxy. i spent my days in bed. all i could see was that star. it wouldn't disappear. i knew i made the wrong decision, but i'm afraid she won't love me anymore. what i said wasn't true. the sleepless nights and bags under my eyes are evidence. i couldn't even play the keys when my fingers touched them. words wouldn't come out of my mouth. my world was falling apart.
why did i hurt this girl? this girl that i love more than words can describe. this girl that's touch is a drug that i can't get enough of. i need her. when our lips collide, time freezes and worries fade. the perfect shape of hers connecting with mine are like pieces of a puzzle. there are billions to chose from, but i chose her. i will always choose her. that's why i need to forgive her. she deserves the universe and i need to probide that. i can't have her hurt any longer. i want what's best for her. if that means i have to wait. i will stay, waiting for years. through thick and thin. i want her to be happy. i want to hold her. this was just a stupid mistake performed by none other than me. how could i have been so dumb to tell her that i needed space. that my carrer was more valuable than her. i messed both of our worlds up. i can't take it any longer. i need her. and somehow, even though i have put her through so much pain, i know she needs me.
i wiped away my tears and opened my door. i took in the first breath of fresh air since 3 days ago. i exhaled deeply and tried to find the courage to jeep going. i tried to not think about anything, and step with one foot infront of the other.
over.
and over.
my feet splashed in the puddles on the ground. my hair drenched in the painful, cold rain.
i arrived at her house. slowly, i made my way to the door. i hung my head, reluctantly. i am ready for her to slap me. punch me. tell me to leave forever. but i understand. i will do what makes her happy. i raised my arm.
knock.
knock.
knock.
seconds later, a hopeless y/n showed up. her head was low, not recognizing me.
she looked up and met my gaze.
she backed up a couple of inches.
her eyes looked like glass, tears puddled at the bottom of her eye. they threatened to spill, but she tried hard to keep them in. her eyes were red and puffy, lips were chapped and cheeks were stained by burning tears. Her hair was pulled into a bun and looked like she hadn't combed it in days. She was wearing big sweatpants and my hoodie.
i smiled sadly.
my favorite hoodie.
even though she was a wreck, she managed to still be beautiful.
a tear dripped down my cheek.
she ran twords me and tackled me into a much needed hug. i held her tightly. she held me. we held eachother and cried hystarically. rocking back amd forth for five minutes.
this is what love feels like.
she didn't care what she looked like. i didn't care what she looked like. she didn't care if i soaked her with my wet clothes. all we cared about was eachother.
she pulled away and interlaced our fingers.
"i'm so sorry. for everything. i didn't know what was going on in my mind. the last thing i wanted was to hurt you. i realized how much pain we were both in. we are both madly in love with eachother. there is no way out of it. there is no way denying it. y/n. i love you so much and i will never leave you again. ever." i promised.
she crashed her lips into mine and wrapped her arms around my neck. i held her face in my hands and kissed back. it was full of emotion. i never wanted it to end. there was hardly any space between us. thats how i wanted it to be.

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