Yuri on Ice Mafia AU 2

Chapter 21

Minami

I see the darkness... am I, perhaps in my own unconscious?... and in the darkness, I see a blue glowing light starting to emerge.

I swim (really more like flail around)... I guess through the air of my subconscious, towards the blue glow that kind of reminds me of the glow of a computer screen in the dark that I am oh, too familiar with.

Who could possibly be on their computer when they are supposed to be asleep in my subconscious? But as I near the glow, I realize that it is just a floating blue ball haze of light.

I circle around it curiously.

"Stop going around in circles Minami, you are going to make yourself dizzy."

I leap back... Mother's voice is coming from the glowing blue ball.

"M-m-Mother!"

"Stop gaping at me like that child! What it's not like this is your first time seeing me."

"But mother, your form-"

"And what of it Minami?" She snaps... still as harsh as I remember...as harsh and cold as she always is. But it just may be her trapped as a ball of light in my subconsciousness... trying to reason with me for acting the way I did.

I mean at least she can't hurt me... I mean a ball of blue light can't hurt me right? I am literally subconsciously talking to mother, probably through our connection.

ZAP

Never mind I guess I was wrong, as the ball of light travels close to me, then zaps me with what looks like a mini lightning bolt.

I rub the part of my arm she zapped, "What did you do that for?" I whine

I feel as if she is giving me a reproachful glare. But how even can she with the form she is in right now? Perhaps because the reproachful glare is the expression she has been wearing on her face recently when she is around me. 

"I didn't do anything wrong," I say to her.

This time, the whole blue ball envelopes me, and I feel those zaps, touch everywhere, stinging my body. Like a thousand bee stings over and over and over.

She moves away from me as I curl up in a ball as a way to cope with the pain. I feel the ends of my hair burn a bit.

"Are you sure you did nothing wrong?" She says slowly as if trying to let me have time to think.

"Yes, I am sure I did nothing wrong," I answer right away. Because it's true. When you stand up for what is morally upright, than you aren't wrong.

"That's not the answer I'm looking for Son." She moves forwards again, and I know what going to happen. I get enveloped again, and this time she sends me several major shocks through my body, leaving me gasping for air, my I feel as if my skin is going to burst open. 

"Minami, tell me then if you are so sure you did nothing wrong, do you have anything you need to apologize for?"

I hesitate. I know what she wants me to say. She wants me to apologize for fighting her... during that time when I refused to let her control me with Yuri, and for all the times I have been delaying her missions and getting in the way of letting her use me. But I would rather receive 100 of those electrical shocks than let her control me again. Especially if she is going to control me while she makes me hurt the people I love. It happened already once before, and since that time I vowed to have more control over my body when she is controlling me... but I mean, look at me now... I hurt Yuri... I hurt Victor... and I find out that Kasai is here, and I will probably have to deal with her... I just can't let her do these things anymore.