One Shots {Sidepack/others}

Las Vegas

Josh P.O.V

Las Vegas. Yep that's were we are meaning me, Simon, Tobi, Lewis, Jj, Cal and Lux. Jj thought it would be a good idea and wanted his best friends to come? He is some strange person. He booked some hotel room that I basically a mini house. Me and Freezy half to share a room same with Simon and Lewis and Tobi and Cal with Jj getting his own. We actually offered for him to have his own because he is loud, messy and just not a good roommate. Don't get me wrong he is a good guy just not good to share a room with. I'm currently in my shared room unpacking a few things. It had two single beds in it and a separate bathroom. It was nice not a bunch of room but it was good. I just open up me neatly sorted backpack and take out the essential aka my charger, computer and headphones. I place them on the side table that's besides the bed. The I put my suitcase and the table thing at the end of the bed. Done! All my unpacking is done because everything is organized. I have every outfit planned and are all sorted in my suitcase. I lay on the bed and put my computer on my stomach. I plug in my headphones, go on Netflix and resume watching Vampire Diaries. Yes I watch Vampire Diaries. Plus the Boys. Whooooo! Any who. I'm so glad I'm on the trip because I needed to get away from England. I broke up with Freya. Now before you think I'm going to say she was bitch. No you are right she was a right up bitch. I told her I was questioning my sexuality and she just cursed at me and told me to go to hell. I see Cal enter the room with only shorts on. I just look back at my computer. He has a nice body that's for sure. "JOSH!" I hear from outside my headphones. I take off my headphones and look to see only Cal in my room. "Yes?" I asked. "The boys and me are going swimming do want to join?" He asked. "Sure I will go change," I answered throwing my computer and headphones to the side. I grab my swim stuff and head into the bathroom. I remove me shirt and socks. I pull down my pants and boxers. I fold everything neatly before throwing on my swim shorts and my swim shirt. Yes I wear a shirt there is a few things I don't want the boys to know about. I grab the folded clothes and exit the bathroom. I put my clothes away and leave the room. I make my way through the house to the pool that came with the house. I open the glass door and I was instantly met with blaring music. Everyone in the pool shirts off and fooling around as usual.

"Look who finally decided to join us," Simon said pointing at me. "Fuck off I didn't take that long," I snapped. I make my way to the side of the pool and put my feet in. I just started to kick around while the boys played water volleyball. I could feel someone grab my feet and my instant reaction was to kick and get away. I started to scream and kick as hard as I could. Except I kick very hard and my kicks happened to hit Tobi's face and shoulders. I immediately got up and walked away feeling like I was about to cry. I didn't even say sorry. I know I probably gave him a black eye or broken nose. It just gave me flash backs about stuff that happened in my past that no one knows about not even Tobi. I make I to my bedroom and immediately go to the bathroom. But before I go in I grab my bag with all my toiletries. My vision gets blurry from tears threatening to fall. I dump out all my stuff and dig through it until I find what I was looking for. Small, silver that has tinted red from pervious use, but still as sharp as ever. I lift up my shirt to see the tiny cuts it leaves. Some have scared but some are still fresh from them not being cut too long ago. There's about 40-50 scars and cuts but that's nothing compared to my thighs. I just put the tiny blade to my stomach it instantly braking the skin. I know how deep I can go without leaving any major damage. It only logic for me to know because I have been doing this for 19 years. I have had a few brakes in between but nothing longer than a month. I have scars from my ankles to my neck. The sidemen know is cut well I use to cut. So now I have to be more sneaky places to cut. I keep pressing the blade to my stomach until there is 15 fresh cuts. My tears have dried up and I no longer feel sad. I grab some toilet paper and clean everything up. I put the blade back in the bottom of my bag. I throw on my black t-shirt and just leave my bag beside the sink. I enter to see no one I'm my room so I don't bother changing into my pants in the bathroom. I pull down my shorts but half way through the door opens. I quickly cover up my dick and pull up my shorts. I look to see Cal just looking at me. "Hey what do you want?" I asked. "Tobi has gone to the hospital we are pretty sure his nose I broken," he answered. "Fuck, Umm did they already leave?" I questioned. "Yep all of them left but I stayed behind," he informed. I just lay on my bed forgetting about changing my pants. I just stare blankly at the ceiling.