You're All I Have Left

it reminds me of him

As we land my eyes shoot open. I must have fallen asleep I turn to look at her are she gives me a smile. "Please make sure all wifi is off and all seatbelts are buckled," the flight attendant says over the speakers. After we land we all get our bags and we walk out to a blank and bland airport. We get to the bus that takes us to our hotel. We got a 5/5 stars hotel. Me and Ari decided to share an apartment. The best apartment. It had a view of the beach and the skyline of the city on the other side. Me and Ari started to unpack because at 6:00 we were going out for dinner. We get ready. "Why are you so beautiful," I say looking into Ari's eyes which are sparkling like diamonds in the light. "I don't know I look completely different from my mum and dad soo..." she says with a laugh of confusion. I walk over to the long mirror and put my jacket on and touch out my hair. " you ready??" I yell out to Ari, "yeah" she replies. I call, an uber and then we go to the elevator and went down to the bottom level. we get to the place as soon as we walk in I say, we are with them and pointed over to the group. he gives us a menu and guides us over to them. "thank you, sir" Ari says in a sweet voice. we all talk for a bit and then I open the menu and I look through the meals, and I realize that all of them were celebs favorite meals. I feel myself about to cry so I tell them I am just going out to have a cigarette. I walk as fast as I can while trying not to cry, I go out the back to where there was a beautiful garden that had a fountain in the middle surrounded by flowers and bushes. I light the cigarette and just hold it between my two fingers and just cry. I could be here with Caleb right now, I see him standing in front of me and he is just smiling at me he walks towards me and wipes away my tears that have been running down my face. he pulls me into a hug and whispers into my ear I will always be here by your side whenever you need me. which made me cry even more " please never leave me, Cal," I say with a sob. he said "if you ever need to talk to me go to my you know, in the cemetery" I looked at him, and thought, I haven't been to that place since his funeral. "of course bro," I say giving him a big hug " I love you" he says hugging me back "I love you too" I reply crying again just at the sound of his voice. I sit back on the fountain and I hear a sound coming from the door I didn't even think to look over I just continued to have the cigarette. I felt a soft skinned gentle touch. I turn and see Ari looking into my eyes, I drop my cigarette and put it out. " may I sit here" she asked with a twinkle in her eye, "yeah sure" I said wiping away the tears on my wet rosy cheeks. she sits down and taps her shoulder for me to lay my head on her so I do. she plays with my hair to calm me down. it works. " babe it's ok to cry" she ensures me, let a tear roll down my face and tell her what happened. "it's not crazy because I have seen my dad after he passed," she says taking a deep breath. when she told me this we were just sitting facing each other. I pull her into a hug " I never wanted you to go through the same pain as I did" I say with a tear rolling down my face. I can feel her pulling me into a bone crushing hug I didn't mind though. "I know but there was nothing you could have done," she says, I pull away and put my finger to her chin and slightly tilt her head up and wipe away her tears and gently kiss her and say don't worry. "Hello" Luke answers, "hey it's me, me and Ari are just going to go back and order stuff to the apartment," I say still with a shattering voice still "ok, you right," he asks worriedly "yeah I am fine I will text you when you guys get back see you" I say quickly. I call an uber and go in and rest my head on the window and just watch the big bright city light flash before me. It had been a massive day. we go up the elevator, get off at our level, unlocked the door, and jump onto the wide couch. I call up and order a pizza once it got here we were watching season one of friends. It was Ari's choice, I still love friends anyway. Ari fell asleep halfway through the last episode. so I walk over to her and bend down to pick her up and carry her to bed, I softly place her on the soft bed, I tuck her in and walk back into the living room and walk out the balcony with a coffee and sit there in silence just listening to the waves. when I looked down at my watch it was 10:00 pm. I was out there for 1 and a half hours. I suddenly feel arms around my neck I look up and Ari is looking down at me. she has a light blue singlet and shorts on. "do you want to come and get some sleep" she asks yawning, "yeah I better" I reply. I get up and put my coffee cup on the rack and peel my jeans and shirt off. I jump into bed and fall asleep.