You're All I Have Left

cozy day

ever since the night my dad came I have been very cautious of whos around me. some days I don't even go outside, Ari stayed with me today, at home. We stay in bed for most of the day, all snuggled up underneath some blankets with Netflix in the background. Ari lifts her head from my chest and looks up at me, I kiss her on the forehead, she puts her head back on my chest. I play with her hair will she puts on another show on the tv. for a while we just lay there, Ari softly caressing my abs. I fell asleep with Ari on my chest, I had a dream I was alone n the apartment and I was walking out of the room and I looked out the kitchen wind and I saw his face (dad) out the window I shook my head and rubbed my eyes and looked back and no one was there. I continue to walk into the kitchen, I look out to the balcony window and I see him standing there, I freeze I don't know whether to move or stand still. He comes closer. I move back, "Charlie you know I never wanted to hurt you," he says slowly walking closer and closer "actually I never knew anything about you, you were always in the lounge room watching television drinking alcohol and smoking a cigarette or a pack of cigarettes," I say walking back sniffing up tears "oh boy you better shut your mouth...". I wake up. "Hey Baby, you ok?" Ari says stretching with a yawn, "yeh, yeh I'm alright bub I just had another dream about my dad" I say looking over at her, as she is tying her hair up, oh my lord I am lucky. "hey do you want a coffee" Ari says snapping me out of my gaze, "it's ok babe I will make it" I tell her with a kiss on her head, I get up off the couch and walk over to the coffee machine, as I turn the power point on I walk over to get the coffee pods, "what would you like babe?" I ask Ari "Chai, please bub" I make me and Ari a chai latte. The smell of chai lattes on a cold rainy day is the best smell in the world. I Go back over to Ari on the couch and quickly get under the blanket, there is only one show you will find Ari watching on a cozy day and that is friends, it's not just her favorite show it's her 'cozy show' she tells me all the time I just laugh and shake my head. I hand her the chai latte while taking a sip of my own, I put my arm around her as I watch the tv. This has been the most relaxed I have been in a while. I jump as my phone vibrates continuously, I try to ignore it but I give up in the end "yeh" I great the person on the other end of the line "yo man it's Bec how's going" Bec says laughing "Bec, are you drunk" I say with a sigh "you know man you are like one of my best friends, I love you, man, I really do" she says started to cry "I love you too bro, hey man do me a favour call a cab and come back to the aparments and have a sleep and some water ok" I say sturnly "don't yell at me! and ok" she hangs up. I throw my phone back onto the other chair and lay back down. Ari cuddles up to me again "this day couldn't get any better" I turn my head and look at her "every day I spend with you is an amazing day, the best day of my life will be the day you say I do" she doesn't say anything she just kisses me and says what did I do to deserve you.