Just Friends

"Who's Going?"

Just like what you said to Jungkook yesterday, you were not able to go to school today. You were really not feeling well and stayed on your bed for the whole day reading books. Maybe stress was mounting on you that's why you feel down and sick and you thought of being absent today will somehow lessen your stress.
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"Haesoo-a." You heard your mom's voice called you from downstairs, her footsteps were as loud as her voice. You turned to the window, not wanting to see her when she enters your room. "Haesoo."
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"Don't disturb me. I'm studying." You said coldly, obviously wanting her to just leave you alone but instead of what you wanted, she went inside and sat on your bed.
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"Haesoo I'm going to work abroad." She spoke which broke your heart all of the sudden, but you pretended to act cold. Just like always, she will leave you for work and will come back after 2 to 5 years. No wonder your dad and her always fights. "I will be flying to Australia in 3 weeks."
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"Then go, no one's stopping you." You replied, not tearing your eyes away from the book.
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"Haesoo, I know you might not understand what I'm doing right now, but one thing is for sure, I am doing this for you, for Haemin, for Hyun."
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"I get it, so will you please leave my room?" You said in an irritated tone. Your mom fell quiet as she looked at you with longing eyes. She was longing for you to understand her then you felt her touched your foot before she left. When you heard the door shut close, you suddenly burst in tears. You hate her. You never wanted her to leave. You wanted her to stay and let your father work for the family but no, and you just don't know why.
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The next day, you came to school but it was not like as usual anymore. Chanmi and Ahreum still weren't talking to you. You tried to approach them but all they did was to give you a cold shoulder. You wanted to cry but you've used up all your tears because of your mom. You were alone for the nth time. You decided to separate yourself from your classmates since you are not really close to them and sat in the corner listening to your iPod until Kangwoo and Jaesuk sat beside you.
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"What the- there are other seats there! Go sit there!" You yelled as you push them off from the bench you're sitting.
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"How come Jungkook sits with you and its okay? We are also your friends." Jaesuk yelled back also pushing you off from the bench.
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"Aish, ya Jungkook's my best friend and you're not!" You hit his head.
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"Oww, that hurts!" Kangwoo laughed as he saw how you hit Jaesuk's head.
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"Same goes with you!" You said, turning to Kangwoo and did the same.
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"Ya, Park Haesoo, why are you so mean?" Jaesuk asked, scratching the back of his head with a pout. "I even have a crush on you." He added.
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"Crush my butt." You scoffed, glaring at him. "I don't have a plan falling in love with you Jaesuk. Never-"
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"Ya, don't say like that because you never know, you might end up with me." Kangwoo chuckled.
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You couldn't take it anymore that you only face palmed yourself because of these annoying people beside you. "God, I don't know with you two anymore." You groaned in frustration.
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"You should be thankful Haesoo that we're here," Jaesuk said which made you look at him curiously.
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"What do you mean? I have many friends." You chuckled but eventually stopped when you realized that 'many' you meant was only Ahreum, Chanmi and Jungkook and unfortunately these two you're talking with.
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"We know but Jungkook has-" Kangwoo stopped when Jungkook suddenly appeared pulling you up from the bench.
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"Ya, you're here." He chimed and began to shook your hands. You were happy to see him but you can't stop from thing something else from what Kangwoo said even though it was not complete, but you can really see that they were serious.
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"What's with you today?" You asked Jungkook as you finally got a chance to have an alone time with him. He was undeniably smiling like he was the happiest person in the world. "Ya, Jungkook-a.." You hit his arm and he turned with a cute bunny grin. You can't help but laugh at the sight, he was really cute especially when his hair was pushed back. You can see his whole face- handsome.
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"Guess what?" He asked.
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"Don't make me guess stupid." You scoffed.
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"Next week's the prom." He said, your forehead ceased and made an 'i-get-it' nod. "I'm going to the prom how about you?"
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"Err, don't know?" You shrugged, you actually don't like going to parties, especially when it requires to wear gowns and dresses.
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"I know you would say that." He smiled, "That's why I asked Chanmi to be my date."
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"Wa- wow. That's great." Eff.
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You tried so hard to make the same expression as his. "So you mean if I go to the prom you'll ask me to be your date?"
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"Hmm, I will ask you to ask Chanmi to be my date but I think it's cooler if I was the one who will ask." He replied.
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"So hmm, what did she say?" You managed to throw another question even though you feel stupid already. How could you think of him to be your date? You're his best friend and he likes your best friend, of course, he should be asking someone he likes not you.
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"Hmm she will think about it, but Haesoo I asked her! Isn't it amazing?"
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"Uhh yeah, amazing." You nodded and was really trying hard to make the same expression he has right now but no. You were like someone who was being ditched.
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"Haesoo are you okay?" He asked you and went to touch your head but you suddenly slapped his hand away.
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"Don't touch me." You snapped, turning your back on him then you quietly wiped your tear with your bare hands.
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"Haesoo-a, are you mad? I can ask Jaesuk to be your date." He said placing a hand on your shoulder. You scoffed from what he said as if having Jaesuk as your date would not make you feel hurt.
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"I'm not mad stupid." You mumbled, trying not to make it obvious that you're crying. "I'm happy for you-"
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"Then why are you crying? You're more stupid." He said.
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"This is not crying." You said as your turned around, and gave him a gentle fist bump on his chest. "You're finally a man, you only got a couple of steps away from Chanmi's heart."
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"Why do I feel that you are lying Haesoo?" He said wiping your tears with his thumb.
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"I'm not lying Jungkook. Don't be ridiculous.: You said, but he was right, you were lying the whole time. You were lying that you said that you're not falling for him because you already are. You love him not just a best friend, nor a brother but you love him as someone who makes you happy, someone that makes you feel loved. You don't know how did it happen but it just happened. You were hurt but are you going to ruin his happiness just because of your feelings? No. That will be the worst thing you'll ever do to him.
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After that conversation with him, you decided to finally break the ice between you and your best friends. you can't stand another day anymore without talking to them. You missed them so much.
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"Mind if I join you?" You asked as you hold on the empty seat across them. Ahreum looked at you as if she had seen a ghost and Chanmi remained her eyes on the book she's reading, showing no interest to see you. You bit your lip as you finally took the seat. There were only three of your in the literature section.
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"Look I'm sorry." You started yet eventually stopped when you noticed Chanmi was not listening to you. "Ya, Han Chanmi. I'm trying to talk here." You said, grabbing the book she's reading. She looked at you and scoffed.
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"What? You're going to end our friendship?" She raised a brow.
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"Chanmi, will you calm down?" Ahreum said, giving her a pat on the shoulder.
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"Go talk," Chanmi said and you went back to start again. You actually don't know what you're going to say.
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"I'm sorry. I know I'm selfish. Please forgive me."
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"That is not what I'm expecting you to say Haesoo." Chanmi cuts you.
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"What else?" You replied, but you were holding yourself from getting impatient with her. You knew that Chanmi's very mad at you right now, but you just can't stop your insides from shaking in anger.
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"You know what Park Haesoo? You're just wasting our time." She said and was about to leave when you stopped them.
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"OK. I admit it! I love him." You yelled making the people from the next section looked at you. You felt your chest exploded when you said that. "Aish, I said it." You sighed.
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"You are the most stupid girl I have ever known, of course, next to Ahreum." Chanmi spoke.
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You remained quiet as you glared at her, but she was right you are stupid. "You don't have to mention it." You mumbled.
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"Then why do you still chose to bridge us?" Chanmi asked and what was that you are making a line between them.
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"Let's just say I'm doing this because I'm his best friend. What are friends for?" You snapped.
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"Ughh, why do you guys have to be sarcastic when you ask and answer questions?" Ahreum whined, getting irritated from your conversation. Chanmi and you just rolled your eyes at each other. For a moment, the silence was there to ease the tension that was among the three of you until you finally spoke.
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".Ya, be his date for the prom."
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"Stupid." She snapped. "You are dumb. No- you are the dumbest."
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"What do you mean?" You frowned.
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"Why do you think Jungkook treats you different that the other girls here?" She asked.
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"Coz I'm his best friend?" You held out a scoff.
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"Do best friends hold hands while they are talking?" Ahreum butts in, you shook your head and reasoned that you always do it with them, but with Jungkook you felt normal.
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"That's very common-"
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"Does he even mention the word love?" Chanmi cuts you which took you to a pause. He does mention about love and whatsoever but it doesn't mean anything.
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"Chanmi, even though he's like that, there's no reason or even a proof that he's in l-"
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"Ya Park Haesoo, I don't have the right to tell other people's feelings. It should be you who will discover that." Chanmi said then Ahreum held your shoulder making you turn to her.
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"It's worth the guts, Hae. Are you going to the prom?" She smiled, but you shook your head saying that you're not the type who likes to party. "Aish, loser." She mumbled.
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"I'm not going to the prom with Jungkook if you won't join," Chanmi said which made you dropped your shoulders in frustration.