Just Friends

"C-L-O-S-U-R-E"

It has been a week since you never talked to each other. After that prom you have no idea of what he's been doing at all- probably he's enjoying the time of his life with his girlfriend. You finally got time with your friends and there they are trying to make things normal like the way the three of you before Jungkook came into your life.
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"You have been so quiet these days Haesoo- are you sure you're okay?" Ahreum asked as she was munching on a bag of chips beside you. You just gave her a nod and turned your eyes back to the mirror that was hanging on the wall. You can see yourself fine, but why can't you feel it?
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"You know Ahreum, Haesoo's in the middle of moving on or whatsoever," Chanmi spoke. As usual, she will bring back the time when you came to her place crying because of Jungkook. It felt so embarrassing for you to be honest, but you couldn't let yourself react to it. "Ya Park Haesoo." She poked you. "You know what you need? CLOSURE. C-L-O-S-U-R-E." She said in a much over-pronounced way by saying that word. "You badly need that-"
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"I don't want to talk to him." You said, looking away with a heavy sigh, not to mention that was the only thing that came out from your mouth since that prom. Your friends were already annoyed by those same lifeless words and they wanted you to be fine.
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"You don't want to talk to him? Why?" Ahreum asked. You looked at her and frowned.
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"Didn't I tell you? He has a girlfriend."
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"So? You are his best friend and I don't see him with someone lately, to be honest." She said and if she's trying to make your mind change, she failed. You are very sure that you will not talk to him anymore.
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No sooner, it was Christmas time and your homeroom teacher decided to hold a party outside the school and you all agreed to go to a resort. Of course, even though you're not a party person you have to join them since it will be the last Christmas party you'll have with them because you'll be transferring to a new school next year. You haven't told your friends yet because even to you too was all too sudden.
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*Flashback*
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You just got home from school when you noticed a paper left on the dining table. You just thought it was just your mom's traveling papers since she will be leaving for a week now, but then your curiosity ate you when you spotted your name on it. Reading it thoroughly, you just realized it's a transfer form and your dad was the one filling it up for you.
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"Haesoo." You jolted when your dad spoke from behind, he was also shocked to see you especially when you are looking at him angrily.
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"Transfer? Who? Me?" You asked you can't even form a sentence from that feeling you're having. You were not yet okay with what happened to you in the prom and this one added to your burdens. How can life be so harsh at you? "Dad, why am I transferring school?" You asked.
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"I'm not going to transfer you alone, but your brother and sister too, all of us." He said sternly as he took the paper from your hand. "I got transferred to a different department in Daejeon, so it's easier for us to live together, your mom also agreed to this."
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"But dad this is all too sudden, I'll be turning to 3rd year now and you know it's hard to adapt-"
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"You must adapt to it Haesoo. You're old enough to understand what's going on in this family. So I am asking for your cooperation and understanding.." He said cutting you off and quietly left the dining room leaving you dumbfounded.
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*Flashback*
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Everyone was excited and talked a lot in the van while on the way to the resort and there you are quietly sitting in the backmost seat with your iPod on. You were having a peaceful time listening to Aerosmith songs when one of your classmates poked your shoulder. As you pulled your earplugs off, you heard her ask, "Why aren't you talking to Jungkook, Haesoo-ssi?" You fell stiff as you looked at everyone looking at you and starting to coo. You remained quiet and stared at them like 'wtf'.
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"Uhh guys, she's not in the mood. Sorry." Chanmi said, making everyone turn their heads away from you until Kangwoo and Jaesuk shouted from the front seat.
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"Jungkook wants to talk to her!" They chuckled, ruffling Jungkook's hair.
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"Fuck this iPod." You cussed as you slam your iPod all of the sudden making everyone quiet. You really don't like everyone's attention at you. It really makes you angry.
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"Haesoo," Ahreum said calming you down. Your best friends knew you from what you are and sometimes were the ones to apologize when you do something bad, especially when it comes to your feelings. You are really sensitive and easily gets angry when someone is making fun of it.
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"What? It won't work." You snapped but it was not the iPod at all, but that anger you have in Jungkook.
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Sooner or later, you arrived at the resort safe and sound. Even though it was cold you liked it. The cold breeze cooled your boiling blood and really makes you want to sleep. The icy waves continue to hit the sand as the sun nears to set. What a beautiful scene welcoming you. You'll be staying there for one night and you can enjoy this scenery for a long while.
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"Haesoo! Let's go get our rooms!" Ahreum and Chanmi quickly took a grab of your arms and dragged you to the lounging are where most of your classmates are there waiting for the room keys to be given out.
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"Omo! Omo! I'm so excited!" Chanmi spazzed as she stands in the line for the three of you. The moment she got your room key you all dashed to the room and spazzed like crazy girls.
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"This is awesome!" Ahreum screamed and threw herself on the bed and rolled like kids while you just watch them from the door. "Come on Haesoo! I know you're excited too!" She said, jumping off from the bed and walked towards you.
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"I don't want to. Please, sorry." You said stepping back away from her.
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"At this moment Park Haesoo you are such a killjoy!" Chanmi yelled with crossed arms. "We want the normal you back." She added.
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"Yes me too. I missed the mean Haesoo." Ahreum nodded.
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Hearing those words from your friends you can't help to heave out a sigh as you dropped your shoulders. It hurts you though but you just can't be happy just like that, now that you're going to leave them sooner or later. "I'm just not in the mood, okay?" You said going to the bed and there you sat at the edge of it and looked at both of them. "Besides, I want to see the sunset." You paused when you heard them giggling. "I want to see them alone." You rephrased causing for them to cease their smiles.
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"Hmpf, such a killjoy, really." Chanmi snapped and threw a pillow at you.
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"Argh! Chanmi!" You yelled and went to throw a pillow at her too, and there also goes Ahreum who also threw a pillow at you. You three created a chase that caused you to run out from your rooms. You were holding a pillow as you run the corridor when you saw Jungkook walking from the end. Both of you stopped and stared at each other as if both of you have seen a ghost.
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"Haes-"
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You heard him speak but then you quickly turned your back on him and went back to your room, locking yourself in.
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Everyone gathered in the mess hall by Ms. Kwon, your homeroom teacher. Everyone was obedient and disciplined since it was time for dinner. You happened to sit in between Kangwoo and Jaesuk, which was your teacher's intention in order to create a rapport in the whole class. You were somehow annoyed with it because you were already friends with these two, but you became much annoyed when you realized Chanmi and Ahreum sat beside each other.
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"It's been awhile since we've seated beside you," Jaesuk spoke, you just gave him a nod and accidentally caught a glance at Jungkook who was staring at you causing for you to choke on your saliva.
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"A-are you okay Haesoo?" Kangwoo asked, you turned to him and nodded yet you were still coughing. Jaesuk handed you a glass of water and you drank it until you're at ease.
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"K-Kangwoo." You finally spoke and Kangwoo quickly hummed in response, smiling cutely at you. You leaned closer to his ear and whispered, "Jungkook's staring at me." You said, low enough just for him to hear but he suddenly laughed causing for everyone to look at you.
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"Yes, I love you too Haesoo." He grinned and went to hug you. You were shocked from that and pushed him away.
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"Kangwoo!"
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"Oooh! What is this? A new fad?" Jaesuk exclaimed making everyone clapped their hands and threw congratulatory words at you.
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"No! We are n-" You were about to tell that it was a joke made by Kangwoo when you noticed Jungkook stood from his seat and left the hall without everyone noticing it except you. You wanted to follow him but your mind doesn't want to. You felt like it will only worsen the things around you if you do that.
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"He walked out." Jaesuk suddenly spoke, that prankster attitude was gone and he was serious as he looked at you.
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"I didn't know it would work that way," Kangwoo smirked, hi-fiving Jaesuk.
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"What the hell are you guys up to?" You asked the two of them which you only gained a smirk. "What?"
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"Do you ever believe he has a girlfriend?" Jaesuk asked you and you fell quiet. Of course, you believed because Jungkook said it to you so you nodded.
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"I don't." Kangwoo raised his hand. You scoffed and shot them both a look.
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"What's going on? If you want us to become friends again, that will never hap-"
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"He still thinks you are his best friend dude. He misses you a lot." Jaesuk cuts you.
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You felt your cheeks burned from that statement. Did Jungkook really miss you?
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"Oh look she's blushing," Kangwoo commented as he pinched your cheek. You slapped his hand off and glared at him but he just gave you a smile. "We know he's the stupid one here, but we are just hoping that you could give him a chance again and you guys will have closure-" This time again, you cut Kangwoo by slapping your hand to his mouth and looked at him suspiciously.
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"Wait a minute- have you and Chanmi talked??" You raised a brow.
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"Yo, Haesoo." Jaesuk took your attention. "Kangwoo likes Chanmi."
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"Whaaaaaat the- are you serious? CHANMI?" You gasped in shock, for the first time you really felt happy hearing that kind of news especially when it involves Chanmi.
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"Hey! I heard my name there!" Chanmi yelled back, stretching her neck up to see you from the other side of the table.
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"Ah- n-nothing Chanmi-a!" Kangwoo stammered and you actually caught Chanmi blushed.
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"Omfg. This is not happening." You sighed out loud, it felt disgusting to hear Chanmi saying I love you to Kangwoo, it felt like the Impossibles knowing Chanmi is dating Kangwoo. It really felt weird just by thinking Chanmi would be under the love spell now. It's unbelievable. Really.
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"Haesoo, just give him a chance okay?"
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You turned to Jaesuk, "What if I don't?"
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"Like people would say, do it before it's too late."
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There goes another feeling of giving second chances. After the dinner, you really thought about talking to him. Perhaps, you really have to give him a chance.
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You all went outside after dinner, warming yourselves around a bonfire which the boys created. You sat far from your classmates but near enough to feel the fire's heat. You were thinking about Jungkook until you saw him came out from the lounge with Jaesuk and Kangwoo. You scoffed thinking what those two are planning up to again until they stopped and looked at you- so does Jungkook. Your heart skipped a beat and eventually looked around to see if he was looking to a different person but no, there was no one behind you. You turned back and saw him walking towards you, his head tilted down as if he was hesitating to go to you.
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"Omigod." You gasped and started to panic inside on what to do. Jungkook is walking towards you and you don't know the hell what to do.
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"Hey." There was a small confidence in his voice as he greeted you; different from the way he greets you back when you were both okay yet you gave him a small 'hey' as well.
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"Can I?" He asked, hesitantly and you nodded again; moving a couple of inches from your spot for him to sit, then a smile appeared on his lips, the tiny crescent lines made his lips more beautiful as he smiles and you suddenly had a flashback of the time when you two kissed each other. He noticed that you were quite awkward so he scooted an inch away from you, just wanting you to feel comfortable.
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"It's cold out here, shouldn't you be wearing thicker clothes?" He said and he was referring to your pink t-shirt and beach shorts, but before you could think of something to say back he suddenly wore his jacket off and wrapped it around you. Now he was only wearing a jersey shirt and shorts, the one he usually wears when he plays basketball in school. Your eyes burned at the sight, seeing too much skin of him that you immediately tore your eyes away from him. "The last time I let you wear my jacket, you got angry-"
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"Will you make me angry this time around?" You suddenly spoke making him stop. "Because I really don't want that to happen again." You continued, you can't look straight to his eyes because you feel embarrassed. You were upset but you feel embarrassed talking to him after that kiss.
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"I'm sorry." He said in defeat. "I was a jerk I shouldn't have yelled at you."
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You were shocked at what he said, he apologized for the reason that he yelled at you but not that he kissed you.
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'So you really mean that kiss.' You thought for yourself as you took a glance at him.
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"It's normal for best friends to yell at each other." You chuckled lightly, brushing your hair away from your face.
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"I missed you a lot." He spoke, you stopped and turned to him an almost surprise but eventually scoffed at him. He looked at you questioned.
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"How can you miss your best friend if you have a girlf-"
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"I lied. I don't have a girlfriend." He cuts you.
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"Why you don't have a girlfriend?" You asked back, he bit his bottom lip and shot you a look.
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"Do I have to tell that?" He asked, hesitating to tell you the reason.
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You nodded, "Yeah in order for me to forgive you, tell me everything- why."
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"It's simple. I love you." He said bluntly and you instantly didn't believe it that you looked away and stared at the bonfire that was burning glow.
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"You can see that fire?" You pointed out and he nodded making you smile. "You want me to burn your face there? I'm serious so don't fool me with your sugary words Jeon Jungkook." You hissed.
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He gulped and began to cup his face making wheezing sounds before he lifted his head up and turned to you. "Fine, I said that I have a girlfriend because I don't want to make you think that after that kiss, you'd be my girlfriend."
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"What the hell?" You exclaimed, not really getting what he said but you can tell your blood was gushing fast through your veins.
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"R-remember the first time we took the bus together?" He asked and you nodded. You can see he was nervous and shaky as he composes himself in front of you.
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"The one I said I got good news."
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"The good news that you like Chanmi?" You said and he nodded, yet he titled his head down again like he was in pain or embarrassed. This was the first time you see him having no confidence at all, like the 'I don't talk to strangers dude' you knew was different.
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"..but it was never Chanmi at all. It was supposed to be you but you said something that caused me to hold to say that-" He continued.
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You came to a pause as you made a flashback of the past conversation with him.
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"You said that you will never fall in love with me- which had hurt me a lot that time but I kept it." He said, holding a fist on his chest.
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"But you agreed, you even said love can never happen to us."
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"Don't you get it? It already happened to us! It already happened ever since the first time I saw you. The day you fell in your seat. I was the one Chanmi had caught staring at you. I was the one I asked our music teacher to be paired with you. Don't you even notice it Haesoo? I have been telling you that I love you! You're just so stupid to realize that!"
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"Why are you yelling at me?!" You yelled back at him as you stood up, throwing his jacket back at him. He stood up as well and took a deep breath before he explodes again.
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"I'M YELLING BECAUSE I FREAKING LOVE YOU PARK HAESOO! YOU'RE THE ONLY GIRL I'VE EVER LOVED LIKE THIS!"
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You felt your voice suddenly left you when Jungkook's words hit you like crazy.
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"Dammit, is it so hard to understand that I love my best friend? That I love you?"
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"But we're best fr-"
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"Stop." He held his hand to stop you and began to dishevel his hair in annoyance.
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"T-then why are you telling me that you don't want me to be your girlfriend?"
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"Like you said, we fight a lot and we could probably forget each other after, but Haesoo how many times do I have to tell you? I don't want to lose you." He said, almost giving up on explaining to you. "Why are you so slow?" He sighed.
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"Yes, I know! I'm slow! I'm slow because I am still absorbing everything you say to me! You stupid!" You hit his arm,"You think if you say that you love me everything will be okay?"
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"You think it won't be okay?"
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"No!" You yelled.
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"Then everything is okay!" He snapped, making you stop- he did make a point.
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"B-but I'm not ready yet." You said, finally giving up your pride.
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"I will wait for you." He said, slowly taking steps near you. You frowned, crossing your arms as you look at him.
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"I hate promises." You said with a raised brow.
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"Did I promise?" He snapped back, picking his jacket from the ground and put it around you once again he scoffed when he noticed that you're still glaring at him. "Why are you looking at me like that?"
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"You think it's funny to hear everything you said tonight? Stupid." You shot back hitting him the chest but eventually hugged him because you missed him so much. "Hug me back stupid." You said when you felt he was not moving.
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"So is it peace between us?" He asked, slowly wrapping his arms around you.
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- tbc










Author's Note: And so the moment of truth.... hahaha. How is it? :)