What's In My Head

I'm a monster

I once showed two adults my self-harm scares
The first thing the first one said was:"why did you do it...you need help"

I fully understood her concern.. even though she doesn't know me she knows that people who intentionally hurt themselves have issues and need someone to talk to

The first thing the second one said was:"do you watch a lot of horror
movies??"

I had to stop and think for awhile why would she ask that.....
Then I realized why she related horror movies to the situation.
In most horror movies a character is possessed by a spirit/monster.The spirit/monster would make the individual it possesses cut themself as a way for it to communicate or maybe it's just trying to escape...who knows

Well maybe I am in a horror movie called "life" and I'm possessed by a boy who needs to come out...he doesn't even want to stay that long a day or two maybe;he just wants out

So I told her"I love horror movies, but I don't watch them"....there's no need when I'm living one