What Is This //solby//

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Sam pov
Beep beep beep
The sound of the alarm that means Monday is here "ugh" i said as I get up still hurting I stand up and got to the bathroom I brushed my teeth and took a shower I got out put my clothes on and say my razor that I use when I'm stressed or fill useless
⚠ Trigger warning ⚠
I picked up the razor and look at it I sat down on the bathtub and start to put it near my skin no I can't do this but I am not meant to be here and nobody loves me at all not dad at least and the bullys ok I start on my 1st I yelped at the pain but I liked it I went down and went to my wrist I did my 2nd cut and I went deep I went acrose and the blood went out kinda fast my arm went numb and did the 3rd cut that I did not fill at all I kepted going till the 6th cut them stoped 
     ~~~~~~~~~~its over~~~~~~~~~~           I put on a hoodie to block all my cuts then got my backpack and phone and ran out the house I walked to the school and saw Colby he wasn't with his friends "hey Sam" Colby said coming over to me "hi" I said really quite he looks at me with confused face "Sam I'm not friends with them anymore we fought and I got sick of them they are just jerks"Colby said to me
Colby pov
Sam did not look as well as he was I think I new why because he thought I was still friends with Brennan,bignik,and Taylor "Sam I'm not friends with them anymore we fought and I got sick of them they are just jerks"I said but he still looked down "follow me"I said as I ran to the bathroom with him by my side I went to the bathroom I checked every stall  "ok Sam what's wrong I see your face you look sad what happened" I said kinda fast "n-nothing" he said looking down lieing                
"Bullshit, Sammy tell me" I. said holding his hand he flinched a little did he oh god please tell me he did not I role up his sleeve there were a lot of cuts on his arm some looked fresh he was tearing up and I was about to cry but I was holding back the tears I hug him "why Sammy why would u do this" he didn't speak he was just sobbing in my chest the bell ring but we dident go instead I brought him out of the school and to the mountain that we call our spot
Time skip to the mountain
He stoped crying and he looked down "I'm sorry Colby I dident want to I just no I'm not suppose to be in this world I was a mistake I don't deserve to live I wish I would just leave already but I'm not dead yet an-
"Sam u no your are in this world for a reason u no you are here I'm here were both here on this world God put u here for a reason please dont say your a mistake dont say u dont deserve to be here and please don't say your not dead yet because I'm not going to let that happen to u please I want u to be here I care about u and I think u care about yourself too please Sammy" he looked up at me and hugged me I hugged back he let go I wish he was in my arms I love him more then anyone will no
Sam pov
I was shocked by what Colby said to me I hugged him but I let go I wish I could stay in his arms longer but I didn't want to get him to think I like him even though I thought I would never love again because the last person I dated which was 2 years ago I hated him he always threatened me or abuse me like my dad does to me so I broke up with him witch was hard to get out of
But I no that I love Colby Brock