I'm in a room surrounded by people.
They know I'm here yet they make no effort to let me in.
All around me they are smiling, having fun.
I want to go home.
Leave this hell that was supposed to be paradise.
I want to talk and be part of the conversations but it seems like my words elude me.
I feel as though one more thought and I may just start to cry.
I don't understand this feeling.
I have felt it for years and yet I still can't comprehend what it means.
I do know that I want it to go away.
It physically hurts me to feel this way and it makes me feel heart heavy.
How is it that I can go from my happiest to my saddest within a second?
I can't fix things...
So what can I do?
