I hate this feeling.
This feeling of utter loneliness.
It's not the first time I've felt like this...
But it's sure the worst.
I live in sweet agony.
My heaven turned out to be a faux loving hell.
I have nowhere to go know.
No one truly understands what pain I suffer.
They say those who share their pain, don't really feel the pain but more the attention.
I have shared my pain and if anything now my pain is worse.
I wish people wouldn't lie to me.
Lead me up to break me down.
I wish I could turn off my emotions, not to feel this torturous emotion.
I have tried but something always bring them back.
What's the 'prize' to all of this?
What's my reward?
Freedom?
I may become free feeling but I'll always be trapped.
