My Math Teacher (Niall Horan)

Chapter 17

Warning: harsh :( [the imagine is suppose to represent the bruising of rose, not how her body looks like ]

-Home/Rose' p.o.v.-

I turn off my lamp and lean back on my wall. I covered my hip down with my blanket. I close my eyes.
Why did mines and crystals relationship have to end? Even as mad as I am at her, I miss her. But I'm so glad we're not together because I realized we are not meant to be. At least I got Niall there for me when I need someone to talk to.
Thinking of Niall, how and where am I going to tell him? The reason of why I didn't like how he touched me, why it scared me.
I'm scared to tell him but I have to. It's been years and I have to get it off my chest or else I'll keep hating myself forever.
My hands start to sweat so as my body starts to feel warm. Flashbacks from the bad memories were hitting me again. Tears start to stream down myself.
"I hate myself"
I whispered.
It was 10:00 pm and my mom was asleep.
I take deep breathes trying to calm down. I couldn't.
"Why are you lying to yourself !? You liked that touch didn't you dirty slvt?! " I whispered to myself going crazy.
I cried more.
I hate when I remember the bad times. I feel like I deserve to be suffering. I'm so ugly! I don't deserve a good guy like Niall!
I will be lonely forever. I deserve to be alone, to not have a true love.
I take my shirt off as well as my pants leaving me with only my underwear. My breaths were heavy.
"Your so ugly " I said looking at my reflection in the mirror from across my bed. The moonlight let me see some of me.
I cried more. I rubbed my thighs up and down scratching them. It hurt but I did it anyways. I made sure I'd have scratch marks afterwords.
I reached to my chest and squeezed my boobs roughly.
This is the only pleasure I deserve. I thought.
I take my bra off revealing my hard nips to the cold air. I rubbed them making a soft moan came out.
I tried to stay quiet.
I grabbed one of my boobs and pulled it towards me to give myself love bites. I did the same for the other.
I rest my head back on the wall. I'm so fvcken fat and I hate it! I need to loose weight but I never can. Maybe I should starve? I don't know, I love food and I'm not trying to faint. I'll starve just a little , but I gotta make sure to eat something.
I snap out of my thoughts. I look down at my big stomach not pleased. I put my hand on my lower stomach feeling my stretch marks.
I wish I could be confident. I truly love myself but those bad memories kills everything.  I try to shake it off and lay down. It feels kind of strange sleeping with just my panties on but it was comfortable. Before I knew it, I had fallen asleep.

-Morning-

I wake up from my alarm going off. I quickly turn it off not wanting to hear it anymore. The morning sun was coming through my blinds that I didn't close properly. I throw my blanket off my body feeling the cold air giving me chills everywhere.
The Instagram notification went off. I grabbed my phone to see what notifications I had.

-School/Rose' p.o.v-

Ashley was absent today so I didn't have no one to walk with to science /Mr.Styles. At least I know I have Jess in that class so I'll see her in a few.
  I felt someone grab my arm aggressively.
Shît.
I couldn't get out his grip. I didn't realized Tears were streaming down my face in pain and because I'm terrified. Mr.Kay put me in his class and locked the door. Oh my gosh, nobody knows I'm here.  How the hell did no one see him do this!? I'm hoping at least one person did so they can call for help.
He grabbed me and put me in his classroom closet with him closing that door behind him.
"What the hell!"
I screamed.
"HELP ME HELLPPP , HELP ME-"
I screamed for help. He grabbed my body and pushed me against the wall roughly, putting his hand over my mouth.
"Shut up unless you want to get beaten up! Stupid girl"
He whispered but screamed.
"You do as I say or I'll beat the shît out of you"
He continued.
My whole body was shaking in fear. What is he going to do to me.
He started to unbuckle his pants.
Crap! No no no.
"What are you going to do to me? "
I say with my shaky voice.
" Shut up!"
He hissed at me.
"Don't talk unless I tell you to!" He continued.
His pants were off as well as his shirt leaving him with only boxers.
He pushed his body against mine, kissing my neck roughly.
I tried to push him away but I couldn't. He grabbed my wrists and put them over my head.
"Can you at least do me three favors "
I asked.
He groaned and looked at me.
"What"
He asked annoyed.
"Don't hurt me, don't leave marks on me, and please please no sex at all! I don't want my Virginity to be taken away right now,I beg you"
I cried.
He laughed at me and continued to Kiss my neck. I cried even more.
He stepped back to breathe. He had a chair in his closet which he sat in.
"Take your clothes off "
He said.
"No"
I said. He raised in eyebrow.
I ran to the door to try to get out but I couldn't open it. I heard him laugh.
"Seriously honey, I'm Smart okay, you really think I would be stupid enough to have that door freely for you to escape, now do as I say before I really do hurt you this time"
He said coldly.
I take my shirt off leaving me with my bra, panties and jeans on.
"You little slut, who gave you those? Niall?"
He was referring to the love bites on my boobs. I forgot I gave myself those last night.
"N-nobody! I did it myself"
I said.
He laughed again.
"Stop lying, how could you have possibly done that? Now take your pants off!"
He said not pleased with my answer.
I took my pants off uncomfortably. The scratches I gave myself were now revealed to him aswell. He stared at my legs.
I sat on the floor trying to cover myself with my arms.
" you are a desperate little bîtch aren't you?" He said getting out of his seat onto the floor with me.
"NO, I'm not , actually, you are "
I said back.
He slapped me hard.
"No more talking, slût" he said while hovering over me. He laid me down sitting on my hips.
"what are you doing!?" I asked.
He slap me again.
He yanked my bra off over my head roughly soon to suck on my boobs. I hated this so much, I hate him!
Tears streamed down my face. He soon placed himself between my legs rubbing his hard self on my area. Why is he doing this to me?...
"I got a better idea"
He said, getting up from the floor. I sat up wiping my face.
"Get on your knees"
He demanded.
I did as he said. He took himself out his boxers.
NO.
"You better swallow my cûm"
He said.
I threw my body back to get away from him as much as I could.
"No ! Let me go now please!"
I screamed. I really didn't want to do this. I don't want to at all.
He came walked to me and grabbed me from my hair.
"You better do as I say unless you want me to hit you harder than before! Do it!" He demanded.
He yanked my head with my hair onto him.
He forced himself into my mouth.
I pushed his body back trying to get away from him.
"LEAVE ME ALONE"
I screamed.
I tried taking his hands out of my hair which is now frizzy curls.
He let go which surprised me.
I looked up at him slowly and scared.
He looked very angry and annoyed. He took a deep breathe which seemed as if he was trying to calm down.
Next thing you know he kicks me hard two times on the side of my left leg. Tears streamed down my face in pain. I wrapped my arms around my hurting leg sobbing.
"H-Help" I tried to scream.
I don't know what to do at this point. I feel like this is my last day really hoping it's not.
"Please stop, I promise I won't report you please just let me go"
I said in pain.
I noticed he was fully clothed now.
"Get your ass up and get dressed"
He said Cruely.
" your coming home with me! Your never going to see your family and friends again " he said.
NO, WHAT THE HELL,
"MR.KAY PLEASE LET ME GO! "
I cried harder.
"SHUT UP"
He screamed.
I stood up weakly trying to put my clothes on which was really difficult.
My body was bruised up, in pain, shaking, and filled with a few 'love' bites he left all over my body that I didn't want.
I hate him.
I never hate someone but I hate this bîtch.
"Let me go"
I cried.
I looked at him playing with the keys in his pocket.
He groans in annoyance.
I stood up against the wall crying. I want to leave.
"Why are you doing this to me?"
I asked. My body is shaking like crazy.
He walks up to me with his arms over my head on the wall. Anger grew in his eyes again.
"Because I want you. You and me belong together, not you and Niall ! "
He said.
What the hell is wrong with him.
"He will never have you because I'm going to keep you away from him and the whole world"
He continued.
I looked down not wanting to look at him. I am so mad. Why me?
"Let me go "
I said again.
He punched the wall.
"WILL YOU STOP SAYING THAT!? YOU AREN'T GOING ANYWHERE BUT MY HOUSE! Shut up!" He screamed in my face.
I kept my head down.
He grabbed my jaw roughly to look at him. He's so ugly, everything about him is ugly! I can't believe I used to think he was a cool person.
He smashed his lips onto mine trying to put his tongue in my mouth. I tried to push him away but he is too strong.
He kissed my cheek.
"I swear, and I never swear but I swear I won't tell the principal or anyone, just please, please let me go ! "
I tried to convince him again.
He grabbed my shoulders roughly squeezing them. He was inches away from my face.
"Rose, I don't want you to be near Niall or any other guy! I'm keeping you at my house, like I said before but you DONT FUCKING LISTEN"
He screamed at the end making me squirm.
Suddenly it hit me. I kicked him hard where it hurts and he backed off. Why didn't I do this before? I took the chance to try to get out. I get the keys from his pocket and unlocked the inside lock on the door.
I made it run for it getting out the second door. It hurts to run but I don't care. I ran to Niall's classroom even though I knew he had a class right now...
Every few seconds I checked if Mr.kay was behind me. He wasn't, thankfully!
I made it to Niall's class and knocked on his classroom door that was locked.
Hurry please!!
He opened it and was shocked.
"Rose!! What the hell happened!?"
He asked me really worried. He pulled me into a hug not caring that his class was starring.
I cried into his arms.
I finally felt safe.

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Authors note: hey guys! I'm not really sure if this is a good chapter but I hope you liked it! I feel like it's short :/
I apologize for any typos, you already know the deal with that😂
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Can't wait for tomorrow! (July 21) because Louis' song comes out! I'm also excited to watch Dunkirk! The movie looks so interesting and waiting is killing me! Also can't wait to watch Descendants ! Lol
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I also hope you have a great day/night!✨
-Rosa