The beginning of the end: Bellatrix Black

Unheard voices

"It was a trap. And I was fooled by my own heart. All because of my irrational desires.

I had been vulnerable and the Lord attacked my mind. My body was now his. To breed a child I never wanted.

What would this child be like? Born into a cruel world by terrible people. Would I have to raise it? Will it be left only at the mercy of life? Just like I was.

Congratulations my Lord, you finally found a way to live a little longer by giving a part of yourself away to something living. Something that would be- could be pure.

But my Lord, this creature is no Horcrux - it has feelings and actual thoughts and wishes. Is what you did fair?

So very well - you played to people your power-driven game and ruined their lives. This is what your greed has brought to this world - death, disappointment and endless sorrow. Are you happy?

Is that what you wanted?" I shout to myself.

"Now I am truly crazy. My hunger for revenge has brought me here - into another trap but this one of my own.

My defenses are down and I have nothing. Not even the power to make one decision. I have no choice. I can't pick my side, it's too late. I can't pick whether to have this child, it's too late again.

I am forever your servant."

So goes the endless chant when I am alone. No one comes to see me anymore. Not even Draco. I scared him to death with my look and unrecognizable mutterings.

Narcissa knew it would have happened eventually. Crazy runs in this family.

"I couldn't fight you so I am here to bear your offspring, Voldemort"

I look at my Dark Mark. It is covered in wounds for I tried to scratch it off my skin. To no avail.

The room had all luxuries you could think of - a pretty cell if you ask me. I laugh at the thought.

Guards at the entrance for I was very sick, as they told. Four more months.

Meanwhile the Dark Lord had created some Dark spell of his own to keep me in check. Like and Imperius curse but lighter there - more air for the thoughts and body while messing with my mind for I couldn't properly differ between day and night.

I must have been very special.

"Everything. All of it. It's all my fault."

Huh?

"I was a fool to believe I could do anything important in this world."

But you are so sweet!

"Leave me alone!!!"

Oh. Okay.

So tears slowly started falling from my eyes.

"My Lord. I have one more story to tell" a whisper and only that.