My secret

Chapter 11

The movie ended and we decided to watch the second one. I'm going to turn up the heat Matt said that way your not cold. No you don't have to do that I said I'm okay with my jacket.

No it's really not a problem he said with a smile. He got up and walked over and turned up the heat. I rolled my eyes cause I know why he did that. Now how was I hiding this shit I thought.

It started to get warm so I knew I had to take my jacket off. I unzipped my jacket . And I noticed Matt watching me closely and got my jacket off and tucked my hands down in between my legs.

He rolled his eyes and sighed okay show me your wrist he said. Why I asked looking at him mainly cause I was trying it stall. Just let me see he said to me Allie was looking between us and stayed silent.

I pulled my wrist out and showed him. He took ahold of my wrist and looked it over. He finally dropped my wrist and got up and walked out away. Allie and I heard the door a few minutes later and knew he had gone outside.

I looked down at the floor cause I couldn't look at Allie. Melanie why are you doing this to yourself she said sounding disappointed in me.

Im not even sure sometimes I said just feel like I need to escape I said. What are you trying to escape she asked, I stayed silent with that question.

Just my thoughts I said pulling my knees to my chest. I wrapped my arms around my legs and placed my face in my knees. He hates me now doesn't he I said to Allie turning my head slightly to look at her. He doesn't hate you she said he never could hate you trust me.

I placed my head back in my knees just kept thinking that I deserve to die. I grabbed my phone and plugged my headphones in and blasted music in my ears.

I felt the couch move so I knew Allie had left the room. I knew she was gone and let tears fall from my eyes since I was alone. That's when I felt someone place there hand on my arm.

I took my face out of my knees and looked up. I saw Jordan on Knelt down on front of me. He tugged my arm and pulled me towards him. I hugged him very tightly he kissed my head and hugged me back tighter.

Matt called me he thought you might want to see me. I thought you were busy helping a friend tonight I said. I was but your my girl and if you really need me I'll be here he said wiping my tears.

He sat next to me on the couch and pulled me into his arms. He rubbed small circles on my back and just held me. I fell asleep but it wasn't a deep sleep.

She cut again I heard Matts voice say to Jordan I wish she would tell me what's going on. She will just sometimes it seems like she is afraid to tell you things Jordan said. I could feel his voice boom through body since he was holding me.

Do you have any idea of what could be going on he asked. Jordan stayed silent for a minute. I got nervous cause I thought he was going to tell him.

No I don't have a clue but maybe therapy will help her stop cutting. Maybe but she has had years of therapy and it's never helped trust me Matt said.

Listen I'm going to tell you any details but she's been through hell Matt said. And I've been there for her most of her life and seen guys come and go. I've also seen them tear her down.

I hope you don't do that to her I'm trusting you. And I don't trust many with her she means a lot to me he said. I won't hurt her I don't ever plan to I care about her to much for this Jordan said.

Good because when she does open up just know it's a lot. And you need to stay because if you walk away like so many have you don't only lose her.

You lose my friendship as well and my respect Matt said. I decided now would be a good time to move and pretend to wake up.

I started to move a little bit and then opened my eyes a little. Jordan smiled down at me well hello sleeping beauty he said. I smiled a little he had a way of making me smile.

Hey baby I've got to go cause I've got to work early, but how about we have a date tomorrow he said. I'd like that I said to him he hugged me tight.

I went to sit up and move off of his lap but he pulled me in again. He tickled my sides and made me giggle then he kissed me. I smiled into the kiss cause it made me happy he made me happy.

Hey I don't want to watch the two of make kissy face Matt said laughing. Hey I've had to watch you and Allie make kissy face so shush I said.

He laughed okay touché he said laughing. I sat up finally and decided to walk Jordan out. We held hands the whole way to the door I will message you once I'm home he said.

I smiled okay drive safe please I said. He kissed me and again and then left I went back to couch to grab my phone. I was headed to bed when something made me stop dead in my tracks.

I looked at my phone and I had a knew text message on my phone.

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