The issue of being an army lesbian

The issue of being lesbian

It was a Tuesday morning at Falkville high school, my senior year, when i first saw the person I knew would be mine one day, but before I get into that I should probably introduce myself. I'm Dj Smith, I'm a senior, kind of a given, and I'm gay. Anyways I have a serious problem with self harm and suicidal thoughts, ever since I lost my last girl friend in a car crash that I was involved in, but that's another story for another time. Now anyways back to my story. The teacher walked in right after this amazing female that I had never seen before, didn't even know her name, but right then and there I fell for her.

I looked to my right and that empty desk, that wasn't so empty anymore, had been filled by this amazing female. I finally got the courage to turn and talk to the unknown female.

"Hi, I'm Dj, I see you're a new student." I said quietly

"Yeah I just moved here from Wisconsin." She said

She never told me her name, so I still didn't know what to call this gorgeous female. The teacher plopped a packet on my desk. I looked down and on the first page, it said that the project was due Friday, we had 4 days to work on this project. The project had to be about some one we admired.

"I can do this, I already know who I'm gonna write about." I thought,"but how am I gonna get to know her?" I asked myself.

The teacher was saying something but I didn't hear a word she said, I kept brain storming on how I'm gonna get to know the female I wanted to write about, I happened to look over at her to see how I was gonna do this. She was looking at me and smiling. So I smiled back.

"Ummm hey Dj?" She said.

"Yes?" I replied

"Well since I'm new here I was ummm,'she paused,' well I need some help finding my classes. Could you, help me, maybe?

"Well what is your schedule?" I asked her

She handed me the paper it read,

"1st- Wayne, 2nd-Carter, 3rd- study hall,4th- Smith, 5th- Styles w/1st wave lunch,6th- Andrews, 7th- Mason, 8th- gym"

She had the same schedule as me, EXACTLY! My heart skipped a beat.

"Yeah I can help you, we have the same exact schedule." I said.

"Wow okay, that's cool! At least I will kinda know someone." She said with a smile

I nodded and flung my head into my palm. I was such an idiot there was no way in the world I was going to get this girl. About that time the bell rang, and I looked up an she was waiting on me. I packed my bag and started to get up but my foot got caught around the leg of my desk. By the time I had time to do anything I was on the ground face down at the amazing girls feet, I laid there in shame. As she bent down and put my head in her hands I rolled over, she had a look of concern on her face,

"Are you okay? Oh no your head it's bleeding." She said

"Uhhh I ummm ouch, my head hurts. Really bad." I said touching the gash on my forehead.

"Well come on and we can go to the nurse,you will have to tell me how to get there." She said

"Umm okay."

We got up and she gathered my stuff, put it over her shoulder and she put her arm around my waist and helped me to the nurse. We got half way there and I finally felt the blood running down my face, I looked down at my bleach white button up shirt and it was covered in blood. I was so ashamed and I knew that I had more than likely lost my chance with her. We got other nurse and the amazing girl ,told the nurse what happened. The nurse told her to lie me down and go to class but she refused, so the nurse let her stay with me.