The issue of being an army lesbian

The Loft

We went up to the loft where I sat on a daily basis and studied and most of the time slept. I had lied to her before I had no house, I was alone. I had no family and no where to stay at night except this barn, she never asked about my parents, not yet at least. That was a conversation I dreaded to come upon. As we were studying, she laid her hand on my leg and I didn't think anything of the scars I had on my thighs that were showing at the end of my shorts, I knew if she went any higher with her hand she would find the most recent cuts and feel the scabs, another conversation I wanted to avoid. I don't think she had caught on as to why I was wearing a long sleeve shirt in the middle of August, and I hope she didn't ask.

As we continued to study, she kept rubbing my thigh. Just her touching me made me melt inside and she didn't even know it. Just through spending the day with this amazing female, with out even asking, I had found out she was like me, or partially. I had found out she liked other females. I was a happy camper.

"Dj, can I ask you something?" She asked me as she laid her pencil down.

"Sure, you can ask me anything." I said with a weird tone. I was unsure of what she was going to ask because I knew she had felt the cuts on my thighs, I was scared.

"Why do you do that to yourself?" She asked.

The dreaded conversation.....I guess she knew something was up.

"Why do I do what to myself?" I asked trying to play dumb.

"Quit playing dumb, I think you know what I'm talking about!" She said sternly as she raised my sleeve.

"Ohh that,' I replied, 'that's uhhh... I'm in counciling for it if that helps any."

"No not really, there is a reason to." She said as she turned away from me.

"Autumn, what are you talking about?" I asked concerned, I laid my hand on her shoulder to try and comfort her. She jerked away from me and quickly turned around to face me.

"What am I talking about?! Well let's see! It's not like I just found out that the girl I'm falling head over heels for is suicidal or anything!" She paused and inhaled deeply.

"That's how I lost my mom and my best friend! I walked in from school and found my mom hanging and bloody in our living room! My best friend drove his car off a bluff, never to be found! Now do you see why this bothers me?" She said crying. She got up and walked over to the window looking out past the field.

I got up and walked over to her and wrapped her in my arms to let her cry. We stood there for the longest time, once my legs got tired I sat down and pulled her into my lap. She wrapped her arms around my neck as she continued to cry. Once she stopped, we laid there in the floor cuddling for about and hour not saying a word. I rolled over on to my back and she rolled over on to me and straddled me and put her hands on my chest.

"Ummm whatcha doing there?" I asked confused.

"I can't take it anymore!" She yelled

"What are you-" she cut me off with a kiss.

"Woah!" I thought to myself

Her kiss was like the kiss of an angel, it was so gentle and sincere. Her soft warm tongue slipped into my mouth, I allowed my tongue to dance with hers to then beat of our hearts. She kissed me again and I couldn't hold back any more, I let my inner man take over. I rolled over and made her hit the floor with a thud. I was now the dominate lover, I had her right where I wanted her! I kissed down the angelic frame of her face, I ran my hand up the leg of her shorts and toyed with the string of her thong, kinda shocked me that she was wearing a thong but anyways. She groaned as I bit her bottom lip.

"Uh oh, did I find something that I shouldn't have?" I asked

She never replied just pulled my face back to hers, she began to unbutton the white button up that I was wearing revealing my grey sports bra. She was wearing a zip up hoodie with a crop top and I didn't wanna remove her from my lips so I unzipped Her hoodie and ripped the crop top off of her, reveling her luscious breast that were being suffocated by the snap in the front push up bra she acquired. Before proceeding to unhook the bright green DD size bra, I stopped and started kissing down her body, right down to the top of her skin tight blue jean shorts. As I began to unbutton them she interrupted me.

"Wait." She said

As soon as she spoke I felt all of the desire I had for this amazing woman fly out of me.

"What are you doing??" I asked myself, "you've gone to far already just get up and go to the other side of the room while she gets back decent, just go!"

With that thought I got up quickly and went to the other side and turned my back to her.

"I'm.....I'm sorry." I said buttoning my shirt back.

She walked over and wrapped her arms around me from behind.

"Sweetheart if I didn't want you to do what you did I wouldn't have stopped you, but I don't wanna rush into this." She said sweetly.

She came and stood in front of me. She was still in nothing but her shorts and her bright green bra that made her boobs look absolutely amazing and big, anyways she put my hands around her waist, and looked me in the eyes and grabbed my face,

"There is nothing I want more than just to be yours completely I wold love for us to be in a bed with nothing on but the sheets, but I don't wanna rush into this and lose you." She said and then kissed me.

What was I gonna do? I had only known her for a about two weeks and was already in this deep.....damn I was screwed!

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-Br3