daily life

single

Well hello everyone, i dont know who you are but just to make sure, im writing this section based on nonsense, so dont think about so hard. Okay?

So i am gonna open this with the fact that i am being single for almost 3 years by now. What it feels like? Well, good enough.

But the things that comes to my mind is, why everyone always making a joke to someone who are single? Like maybe they do it for fun, but the fact it is not fun, sometimes it rather offending.

Like, really? Does everyone who are in relationship is happy?no i think not, i've been there before, feeling insecure, dont know where this is heading, whats more he want from me, whats is his family likes, and all the complicated question. Like maybe thousand or million of it.

Theres always a reason why people wants to stay single. And we have to respect all people without devide them into something uncertain and stupid like is he/she still single or seing someone.

From my perspective, when i am in relationship. Its totaly not healty for my mind, i have to share everyhing, and maybe i share too much that the end i almost loose who i am. I nearly cant live by myself. Its totally adicting but it worse.

Well, i dont know what i am suppose to write. The point is, it is totally okay to be a single. Like you dont have to check on your phone 24/7, then have a little chit chat but you already miss your bed, you dont have to share your food for anyone (i really dont like sharing my food wihout my permission).

But, sometime i really craving for some realationship, like its feels nice to have someone who cares for you, someone you can talk to every damn time you feel insecure.

But then its cost too much for me now, its too luxurios for me. I still need a lot of space of my damn self before letting anyone come.

Ugh, i really dont know what i was writing. Maybe its just a side effect from watching "how to be a single" movie, and somehow i drawn into that story.

Let me know if you have any other opinion :)