Daddy's Sweetheart Baby Lu (Hunhan)

Hellow my sweethearts

I am so sorry that I haven't updated in like months and I would say I am back with new chapters, but it is going to take a bit with the update.

Stupid writer's block.

Me and my boyfriend broke up on Saturday...Our second month anniversary...It hurts so much.

I feel like my heart is being torn apart and keeping cool is getting harder by the second. I want to pretend that I'm okay but I'm really not. I want to keep strong but I'm falling apart.

But I'm trying to not go back to that ugly depression I was in but it's harder than I thought. I haven't even changed my relationship status because I'm simply not strong enough. I still have tons of pictures and those memories keep coming back.

I wish I could numb it all. I simply don't want to feel.

The fact that school is starting soon and I'll be forced to see him kills me.

I'm sorry, guys. Please be patient.

I gathered enough courage to tell you this, I've been keeping it a secret from most of my friends but you guys deserve my full honesty.

Honestly, the song from Sistar literally explains everything that happened between us.

He said we were fighting too much and he wanted to make it stop. I was offering solutions but he simply gave up...

I was no indifferent to him from other people, I was insufficient...

I guess he could use this alone time and figure out what he wants. I just wonder why I love him still when he wasn't the perfect boyfriend. I try thinking of the bad stuff but nothing's working. I end up crying or having an anxiety attack or both.

Anyways, I'm sorry for everything, you guys. I will try to update very soon.

I love you all...