on a journey

6:47 am

in that moment,

I wish I was strong enough to make you stay,

brave enough to speak the words you wanted to hear,

I was terrified of giving much more of myself to our love,

scared of letting you in even more,

so I shut the door,

so tightly you couldn't see light,

if you peeked underneath,

and I walked away,

from you and from everything

allowing your sobs,

and the sound of your heartbreaking,

fade to silence,

as I walked farther and farther away.

in that moment,

I wish I had fought for us,

instead of running away like a coward,

I wish you hadn't held me loosely enough for me to escape.