Heart of an assassin {complete ✔️}

Sucide attempt

⚠️title was the warning people. If you don't like, don't read.⚠️
It was the middle of the night. Everyone was asleep. Except for Chopper who was recharging. Oh and Morgana who had just woken up from another nightmare involving everyone she had ever murdered or hurt or basically fucked up their lives.
Morgana sat there in silence for a moment. Her purple eyes were filled with nothing but, a look of fear. All those people were hurt by her hand. Hurt by something she did. Hurt by something she helped do. Hurt by things she didn't stop. Things she didn't talk others out of.
"Everyone in the galaxy would be a lot better off without you." A voice in her head whispered. Morgana ran her hands through her hair. She couldn't deal with this tonight. Not tonight. Cause tonight what ever that voice inside said that always weighed her down was true.
Well, it always was true. She always believed it. Which was why she found it so hard to leave her bed every day and pretend to care or not care about things. Be alive in a galaxy that was better off without her. A galaxy that didn't deserve girls like her.
Girls who hid while her village was burned to the ground. Girls who remained silent as they watched their father get stabbed. Girls who didn't fight back when the empire took their brother and cousins away. Girls who hid in their closets when large women wearing white masks broke into their new homes. Girls who remained broken over years of killing for her 'master'. Girls who let they only person who loved them die. Girls who get all their friends killed by just knowing them.
"All you are is a killer. Zeb knows it. Hera knows it. Ezra knows it. Crystal knows it. Everyone knows it." The voices seemed to be getting louder with each word. As it continued talking Morgana kept seeing them die. She kept seeing the moments that her old friends died. Even though she saved some, she couldn't save them all. Same thing could be said with her family.
"Everyone would be a lot happier if you were dead." The voice whispered again. Morgana curled up into a ball. She felt really small. Not because of her size but, because of what she had done.
"Shut up." She mumbled as she rubbed the sleep out of her left eye. Morgana knew it wouldn't shut up though. It was right. It was always right.
"We also know Crystal never loved you. You're just a whiny, heartless, ugly, fat little pig, who deserves what will eventually come to her." The voice stated. Morgana sighed as she looked over at the droid charging. He wasn't going to wake up anytime soon.
"Well, it's coming to me tonight." Morgana stated climbing out of bed.
Soon she was searching through her drawers. She reached far back and felt around until her hands rubbed up against a tiny bottle. Her fingers wrapped around the tightly bottle before she pulled the bottle out as fast as a animal hunting it's prey.
She closed the drawer quickly. Then she found her self sitting on the bed turning the cap to the left, taking it off. Or at least try to. It wouldn't open. No matter how much she tried to open it.
"Stupid child prof caps." She mumbled. (Anybody get the reference?)
She began frantically turning the cap. She wanted to die. Why couldn't anything just let her die?! Finally she needed up putting the cap in her mouth. Her fangs sunk tightly into the top of ten bottle making a tiny snapping noise. Quickly she turned her head and spit the lid out of her mouth. To her surprise the entire top had been bitten off.
Then she just sat there looking at the pills. Something about this didn't feel right. Then it hit her, they were going to ask questions. So she dug out her old journal ripped out a page and wrote down a few things.
"I'm sorry. I tried, I really did. You guys were an amazing group of friends. Really but, I just don't think you deserve me. No one deserves a monster like me. So, don't be sad I'm gone. Be happy that a monster is dead.
Signed,
Morgana Polaris Merck.
P.S. Crystal, I love you."
Morgana placed the note on her bed as she sat back down. She picked the pill bottle back up and looked at the thousands of pills that seemed to be calling her name.
"Should I say some last words?" Morgana mumbled.
"Why? No one is in here or would like to listen." The voice stated. Little did it know someone had heard her say something and was now trying to open the door with sleep in their eyes. Why? They wanted to know what she was doing up.
"Okay, well just one. Daddy, I'm sorry. I tried to be a good girl. The same girl you loved so much. The girl you used to let play Jedi with the boys but, I failed. I really did. Now, all I can do is kill myself." Morgana stated. The person on the other side of the door was now fully awake upwind hearing her say what she was about to do. They were now punching in the code but, began messing up due to the fact that they were panicking.
"I mean monsters like me die all the time. You said when a sith or people who hurt others die the world is a safer place. So, think of it this way dad, the worlds a better place now. Wait, I just realized the boy's are probably there with you. Galen, brother, I know you said to stay strong and that you'd find me again. That we would be together again which is going to be true in a minute. As for the twins, Arcann, Thexan remember when I said that I was going to kill you two for embarrassing me I front of Sammy? I am still doing that! I don't care if we're dead. I am gonna do it any way." She then smiled realizing it was all over. Her fight to want to live. The battle of wanting to like herself. It was all over.
"And as to the Annie if she can hear me, fuck you. ........ That's it I guess. Goodbye galaxy." Morgana smiled at the bottle.
"Bottoms up." Then she swallowed the hole thing. She let the bottle drop to the floor as she felt the tiny pills enter her mouth.
Then, the door opened revealing a pissed off looking friend. The pill bottle rolled up against his feet. His green eyes filled with fear before running over to the kid. He held her checks in his large hand. She was not dying on his watch!
"Spit them out!" He stated coldly. Morgana tried to shake her head no. Then she tried to swat him away doe she could swallow.
"Spit them out! NOW!" He snapped. Morgana shook her head no as tears filled her eyes. Her hair was now a mess. As for Chopper, he was still powered down during all of this.
"NOW!" He repeated.
"Swop. Lht mw dhe." Morgana stated some how even though he moth was stuffed with pills. She was now full on crying but, he didn't budge.
"No! This is stupid!" He stated. His grip tightened a bit making her checks bulge out.
"Swop!" She sobbed.
"Morgana, stop. You know who would care if you killed yourself? Everyone on this ship would. Even Chopper and he doesn't like people! Hell, Morgana I would. So spit them out. Not just for me but, for everyone else. Please." Zeb pleaded looking right into the tiny girl's dark purple eyes. They sat there for a moment in silence before he heard a large gulp. Which made his heart stop.
"HERA!" Zeb yelled for the first person that crossed his mind.

Yet, the second he yelled it Morgana spit all of the pills out, all over his lap. Which was gross but, it was relieving to him.
Zeb let out a nervous laugh. Then, he pulled Morgana into a large hug. Morgana hugged him back almost instantly, very tightly.
"Jesus kid, you just scared the shit outta me." Zeb stated with a relived grin. Morgana just began sobbing hearing this. Yet, instead of saying sorry she said,
"Please don't tell the others. Please."
Zeb crossed his large fingers.
"I promise." He lied. He was definitely going to tell Hera. Yet, right now all he was going to do was hug her until she didn't need to be hugged anymore.
Yet, no one noticed Crystal run into her room. She looked panicked. All she heard was a loud scream for someone. All she could think of doing was running into here.
"What's going-" She didn't even finish her sentence when she saw the girl hugging Zeb tightly and sobbing her eyes out. Then she saw the empty pill bottle on the floor. Her first thought was a reply of when her mother died.
"Mommy get up! We have to eat breakfast! Daddy cooked it today!" Crystal smiled knocking on her mother's bedroom door. Her mom never answered back. So being the idiotic four year old she was, she pushed the door open as her sisters Skylar and Kelly walked up behind her.
They all froze as the saw their mother's motionless body hanging from the ceiling with a rope around her neck. Her neck looked like a snapped twig.
Kelly and Skylar just seemed to freeze. Meanwhile Crystal screamed at the top of her lungs which caused her father to run down the hallway. The rest was history.
Crystal's next thought was Morgana was going to die. She quickly ran over to her.
"Oh my god how many did you swallow?!" She asked just looking at her. Morgana didn't answer. Instead she let out another sob. Zeb turned his head.
"She just spit them out." He stated calmly. Crystal relaxed a bit before hugging Morgana. Well, A least she was trying to hug just her but, ended up having a group hug with them.
"Don't you ever scare us like that again." Crystal mumbled into Morgana's ear. Then her eyes flew to something on the bed which made her grip on her friend tighten as well as her eyes fill with a bit of tears.
"Next time you need help, just ask." Zeb mumbled after a couple moments of silence. All Morgana did was keep sobbing. That is before a tiny frail voice said,
"I will."