quiet • changki

five

"changkyun, can i see your arm?" mom said as i was untying my shoelace.

oh shit

"uh yeah–" i said as i held it out.

her eyes gazed the four noticeable lines on it and asked, "what are these from?" i told her that hoseok and i were outside once and my arm got caught by some trees, but she didn't believe it. "trees? really? let me see your other arm," i sighed and showed her the other one which had four more lines on it.

she told me to go upstairs in the bathroom and told me to wash them and put medicine on them so that they'll heal faster and be not noticeable. i think that's what she said at least, not like i was paying attention.

"you can't be doing this still, changkyun. they'll get you on medication and you don't want that. depression can be cured naturally."

the fuck kind of explanation is that?

i just stayed quiet and continued washing.

after putting all the medicine on the cuts i went to my room and called kihyun.

"k-kihyun," i sobbed.

he sounded panicked when he heard the state i was in, "what changkyun? what happened?"

"she-she found out about my arm and i don't know how but she did and–"

"wait, changkyun, you're still," he paused, "hurting yourself."

i sighed rubbing my forehead, "can i just come over? my mom's probably taking the day off tomorrow on 'suicide watch'."

"yeah definitely. i'll unlock the window."

"and kihyun?"

"yeah?"

"i love you," i barely squeaked.

"i love you too," he said with a sweet tone.

"okay now i'm coming!" i smiled as i hung up and went downstairs to get my shoes on.