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Secret Love Song

Perrie's POV
We are performing today and I'm nervous because we added some new dance moves I just hope I don't forget because we dance to every song unless it's a ballad. I love dancing but I get tons of hate saying I can't dance and I don't put effort into it because Leigh,Jesy and Jade are amazing dancers like they could be dancers. Jade has been the cutest thing lately we haven't told anyone about us because I'm scared I think everyone basically knows Jade's gay because of the way she is around me but I'm scared what if my family don't except me anymore what if my mom hates me. What if Zayn finds out and comes for me or the girls. They been hurt enough because of me I can't put them in danger. I can't let this get out he will kill me or Jade. I start to cry and the door opens I wipe my tears and looks up to see Jade with a worried look on her face. "Baba what's wrong" she says to me. "Nothing" I lie I don't want to tell her because it's stupid and silly. "Please tell me" she begs. "I'm scared" i say it so softly hoping she doesn't hear. "Scared of what" well she heard me, great now I have to tell her or she won't leave me alone. "Everything of Zayn and that my mom won't except me cause I'm gay" she grabs both of my hands. "Your mom love you Pez and I won't let Zayn get to you I promise" I know she's sincere about it but I'm still scared. "We have to get ready to perform" I nod and get up and get dressed. I look very bummy today because I'm gonna change into my outfit for the show so there's no reason to look all glamorous untill the show.

As we are performing we do secret love song at every show because it's our #lgbtq anthem. As Jade was singing she kept stealing glances at me like she always does as I lip sync to our parts. When Jesy was singing I'm yours Jade moves closer to me and held my hand for a brief moment. I blush and looked down, I sang my part longer than I ever have before earning the crowds screaming. Jade smiles at me and then everyone started chanting jerrie and then told us to kiss. I was laughing so hard and Lesy were chanting it too and Jade pecked my lips softly and my eyes go wide. I mean it's not the first time we've kissed but she did it in front of everyone. Oh gosh our moms where in the crowd today, I can see them giving each other looks of confusing. I was blushing a deep red and jade hugged me holding my waist as I bury my head into her neck hiding my blush. "Okay love birds we have a show to perform" I finally stop blushing and Jade kisses my cheek. Of course everyone screamed again and during everyone song she kept flirting with me if I passed by her she would smack my bum. As we where singing touch I was grinding on her same as Lesy.

After the performance we meet our mums I told Jade I wasn't ready to tell them because I'm still terrified Jade agrees saying it's too soon and if I'm not ready she won't say a word. "Can I talk to you Pez" I nod and follow Norma away from the girls talking with our mums. "What's going on with you and Jade" oh god I don't want to lie but I have to I just hope when we do come out she doesn't hate me or disapprove. "Nothing" she squints her eyes trying to see if she truly believes me. "Okay Perrie" we walk back to the girls and Jade immediately puts her arm around my waist. God this isn't helping at all I told her nothing is going on.

We get back to the house we are staying at we have to pack tonight because we have to go to a hotel in some place for another show. I go to my room I share with Jade and we both pack as I'm still folding clothes Jade comes behind me holding my hips and pressing soft kisses to my shoulder and neck. "Jade not now we have to finish" I whisper. The things she does to me, ugh we aren't even dating. She turns me around and pushes me against the wall as she attacks my neck like she usually does I'm glad the camera crew are filming downstairs. "Shit Jade" I moan quietly, you never know when they are filming and I hope there not. She moves away and smirks kissing my neck softly. I look in the mirror and see two hickeys on my neck that are purple. "Jade" I whine. She hugs me and kisses my forehead. "Are you mad" she asks. "No just what if the mums see and ask question or Lesy" I ask. "Wear a hoodie" she says simply. I change into black leggings and a pink hoodie.

We both walk downstairs the mums are watching tv as Lesy aren't cuddled up like they always are they still haven't told the mums about them I guess there nervous or not ready. We sit next to Lesy on the couch and since there's like no room I sit on Jade's lap and lay my head on her shoulder. "I'm hungry" I say. They all laugh "your always hungry" says my mum. "Nandos" I question. They all nod and we get up and get into a car that fits all of us it's basically a bus.

When we get there me,Jade,leigh,and Jesy sit on one side of the big booth and the mums sit on the other side they are talking. I grab my phone and start looking at twitter and the fans as well as haters. I feel a hand on my tight I looks down and it's Jade she is smirking. Oh no what is she thinking, the camera men followed us and I just hope they aren't recording this. "Perrie what you gonna order" asks Debbie Leigh-Anne's mother asks. I was about to speak when Jade's hand goes higher and she rubs my inner thigh and starts rubbing my thigh in circles. "Umm.... I'll have a... a uh burger with no cheese and.... some- some fries please" I stutter and pause through the sentence everyone gives each other confusing looks as Jesy I think gets the hint as she points under the table to Leigh. They both laugh making the mums looks at us. "May you excuse me" I tell the mums. I grab Jade's wrist making her follow me. "Jade what the hell" I say now I'm mad well not mad just sexually frustrated. "What do you think your doing, our mums are right there" she smiles and comes closer till I can't move and my back is against the door. She locks the door and looks back at me. "I just want you so badly" she whispers in my ear making me whimper. She starts to kiss my ear and neck very softly like she's brushing her lips down my neck. "Jade stop teasing please" I beg into her ear. She kisses up my neck and then my cheek finding my lips in a slow passionate kiss. Then it gets very heated and she picks me up holding me bum as my legs wrap around her waist. She sits me down on the counter and starts to take off my hoodie but stops. "I would take you right here but we have to get back" as soon as she said that I get a text from Jesy in the little mix group chat.

Jesy: what's going on you've been gone for like 2 minutes I think the mums are starting to worry are you okay?

Me: sorry we are coming out, something upset me

Jesy: you okay

Me: yeah it's just haters. coming out now

I walk out and Jade grabs my hand as I make myself look like I was crying. "Perrie are you okay" asks Leigh. I nod and sit back down, "just the haters as usual" I say.

After Nandos we go back home and me and Jade are laying in bed when I feel her hands start to massage my arse. "Jade not now in tired" I tell her. She doesn't stop I can't do this right now. She moves and next thing I know she's straddling me. "Jade" I whine, I need sleep. She pecks my lips and then we share a heated makeout and it gets more intense and she rips off my shirt and I take off hers feeling her toned abs. She takes off my pants and then hers leaving us in our bra and panties. "Are you sure you want this" she asks I love how she's so caring but I just want her right now. Instead of answering I grab her face kissing her roughly. She moves taking off all the rest of the clothing I have on.

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