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Love Me Or Leave Me

Perrie's over
Me and Jade haven't talked to each other in about two days and I'm still pissed she cheated. Of course we see each other everyday but the silence is killing me. I hate her but I love her. I want to kill her but I want to be held in her arms forever. I'm torn Leigh and Jesy have tried everything to help but I think it's the end for Jerrie. The big fight was aired and LM's twitter will not stop with the questions and hatred towards me most and some to Jade. I don't get it what did I do that makes everybody hate me more than Jade I mean I didn't cheat on her. I get up to the smell of food and we have to perform today as well as go do some interviews and performances. Right now management is very mad at me and jade our relationship wasn't supposed to be leaked and they think we are gonna break up. The paps are having a field day with this saying there gonna kick me out of the band. Jade keeps trying to talk to me but I shut her down every time because she keeps says she's sorry and all I can do is cry. And what's worse is we asked the fans what songs they wanted us to sing at our interviews we normally sing the new songs and they chose love me or leave me, touch and secret love song. Those were me and Jade's favorite songs to sing together and of course more but we had a blast in the car singing those songs especially touch. I see Jade sitting on the couch with her phone next to her ear. I hide trying to listen to her conversation. "Mum can you not yell at me" I hear Jade say frustrated. "Mum don't you think I've tried saying sorry but every time I try she shuts me down and I'm gonna try everyday till she forgives me and if she doesn't then I don't know" I smile slightly. "I already told you I don't have any clue why I cheated on her I love her more that my own fucking life mum, she means the whole world to me and more, but I really messed up and I know she might not ever forgive me but I can try right" I hear her mom say something like 'stupid and disappointed' I never thought this would happen. "I am everything you just said I'm so stupid and you have every right to be disappointed in me because I'm disappointed in myself okay mum, I'm so mad at myself for kissing her back I'm so pissed at myself because I promised myself that no matter what I would be loyal to Perrie because I can't stand to see her heartbroken it kills me like actual pain to see her cry my heart hurts everyday I see her and she will never get back with me and I will never live with that" i can hear her voice crack. I know Jade just about as good as her mom does and I can tell she's very sincere about this. "Poopey I know it's very soon but if she doesn't forgive you do you plan on moving on" Jade scoffs. "Mum I will never move on when I said Perrie is all I want I mean't it no one can even come close or compare to her I will never love anyone the same" after a few more second Jade hangs up and I run to my room crying my eyes out. I can't believe that, I feel so terrible for being a total bitch but I can't get over the fact that she did this to me. I fix myself before getting dressed in black jeans with a white collared shirt a pink leather jacket and pink stilettos. I unbutton my collared shirt showing some cleavage. I've looked like shit these last couple of days and I don't need to look like the hot mess I am in front of the whole world. I curl my hair and when I'm done with my makeup I walk downstairs to see the girls all ready sitting on the couch. And can I just say Jade looks so hot in all black leather. Today we decided to wear leather because everyone loves the sexy side of little mix. I am determined to have a good day and not cry. "Perrie can I speak to you" my head shoots towards Jade and I look at Leigh and Jesy with worry in my eyes. Just hearing her call my name makes me want to break down and cry. I am very honest especially when it comes to my fans so I wasn't afraid to tell them how I'm doing of course not revealing everything but some stuff. "Pez go" says Leigh shooing me with her hands. I try to find a reason not to but I can't figure anything out right now I'm so terrified. "Please Perrie" a tear falls down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away and follow Jade into the kitchen. "I know you hate me" I cut her off saying "I could never hate you" I think she smiled but it quickly went away. "Well I just want to say sorry again I know it's no different from yesterday but i am truly sorry for putting you through so much pain" I frown thinking about everything. "I don't think I can forgive you right now" Jade nods and moves closer I move backwards and she moves closer grabbing my hip. I look down at my hip and see her hand. She moves closer looking me in the eyes and then down at my lips. She start to lean in and I lean back I want to kiss her so I don't know why I moved back. "Jade" I start and she cuts me off with her soft lips against mine. Oh my how I missed her lips it's only been 2 days but I miss her so much I hungrily kiss her back holding her cheeks. The kiss becomes very heated as her tongue enters my mouth. After what feels like an eternity we part of air, and can I just say wow I mean I've kissed Jade plenty of times but that was wow left me speechless. Jade looks at me and smiles and I blush looking down she puts her finger under my chin lifting it up guiding me lips back to hers in another very hungry yet passionate kiss. Jade starts to kiss down my neck sucking on it very hard I pray she doesn't leave any marks. "Jade" I breath out. "I can't" she moves from my neck and pecks my lips walking away. How can she do that give the most passionate kiss and then leave me unraveled and very turned on now.

After a few minutes of me standing in kitchen dumfounded until I see Jade and come out of my trance. "Baba we have to leave" she walks away and smacks my bum making me jump up and turn her way.

We get to the today show where we are performing and of course as we where passing by the paps they said something about Jade cheating on me which of course reminded me and made me day so much more worse I silently cried in the car and wiped me tears hoping no one saw or heard since they were playing music.

We are performing Love Me Or Leave Me and as I sing my part I see Jade starting to tear up and it's killing me because this song describes how I feel and what I want to tell Jade. I finish my part and wipe a tear from my eyes the audience is silent waiting for what is about to happen. Jade turns to me "do you remember when you love me once what happened, what happened and I'd hold you here just because what happened, what a happened" Jade changed the lyrics says 'I'd hold you here just because' a tear slips down my face but I keep fighting through. "We used to never go to bed angry but it's all we ever do lately your turning away like you hate me do you hate me, I know you hate me oh" she changed the lyrics again and looks straight into my eyes. I turn to the audience if I keep staring at Jade i'm gonna break down. "You can take this heal it all break it all apart" I turn to Jade "no, this isn't fair, love me or leave me here oh,oh,ah,ah, love me or leave me here oh,oh,ah,ah, love me or leave me here" I close my eyes not letting the tears that are threatening to fall come out. I don't want to look at her but Jade isn't giving up so she turns back to me "love me Perrie please, cause I can still be the only one you need, the only one close enough to feel you breath, yeah I could still be that place where you run, instead of the one you're running from, ooh" I let some tears fall I see Jade struggle not to come a wipe my tears as she moves a little closer. Leigh sings her part beautifully as me and Jade still haven't moved from each others gaze, We added this part at the end. "love me baby" I sing and break letting my tears fall Jade is the first person to run to me as they shield me I sob not noticing that everyone heard it because the mic was that close to me. Jade tries to talk to me and I push her away "you don't get to hurt me and then try to put me back together" I whisper yell hoping no one hears. Jade holds in her tears as she walks off the stage after a good couple of seconds Leigh and Jesy walk me off the stage.

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Oh my, another very hard chapter to write there was a Jerrie kiss and I was totally balling my eyes out during this chapter because I was listening to love me or leave me so I can really put myself in there shoes, I have been cheated on so I put some of my feelings into this chapter, it was very emotional and I hope you like this. Love you all thank you for all the reads!