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Pretend It's Okay

Jade's POV
Today is the day we say goodbye to Perrie forever they said she's not getting better and they have to take her off life support it's been too long she should be able to breath and function on her own by now.

I have been sitting in my room for two days I haven't eaten or anything I just can't, I can't live my life knowing my whole world is sitting in a hospital bed fighting for her life. I can't breath knowing she can't do that on her own. I can't smile knowing Perrie won't smile back. I can't go on with my life and act like nothing is happening like the everything is perfectly fine. Because it's not the love of my life is dying and unstable because of Zayn and Alex. I wish I could kill them I could care less about a charge or being arrested all i want to do is kill them for making Pez this way. She's in pain suffering she can't even fucking move and it's all my fault.

I could have done something, I shouldn't have cheated, I shouldn't have ever made her feel like I don't love her, I shouldn't have made her feel worthless, useless and like she isn't wanted, I could have told I love her more or hold her tighter. Held her in her darkest hours. But I left it too late no I feel nothing but towers.

I walk outside the house to be surrounded by paparazzi and I act like everything is okay, pretend it's okay that she will make it that this isn't the end.

I get to the hospital when I walk into her room Leigh and Jesy are standing there. "Hey Jade you okay" I shake my head. "No" I answer trying to hold back my tears. "I'm terrible" Jesy rubs my back. "I can't believe this" says Leigh. "It shouldn't have ended like this, she should be fine home watching a Disney film with us not in a hospital in pain" she cries. "We will make it through Leigh" Jesy tells her. "What about the band" asks Leigh. I never thought about the band I never thought what's gonna happen because I never saw this happening. I though we would sing together till we die and that's what I want but it will never be the same. Who is gonna make us smile now, who is gonna laugh at us being stupid, who is gonna cry at the sad parts of movies, who's gonna fill in the void of pain and regret. No one because no one can be like Perrie. No one can replace Perrie. No one even comes close to Perrie's greatness. "I don't know it's not gonna be the same" I tell them. "I don't want to say goodbye" I hear Jesy whisper. "Girls you have 15 minutes before we take her off the support" says the doctor. I cover my mouth as I let tears fall freely down my face, I can't believe this is how Perrie is gonna end this is how little mix is gonna end. "This can't be the end" I tell them. "She can't die like this, she never deserved this, she was the worlds happiest person ever" I yell. "She can't go, we need her I need her, I can't live without her I can't fucking live without her" I scream. "Shhh Jade" Leigh says as she comforts me. "We will get through this together" I nod and sob into her chest and I feel Jesy join the hug as we cry together.

The doctor walks in and so does Perrie's parent and siblings. "You ready" asks the doctor. "Is that even a fucking question" I say rudely. "Jade" Jesy says. I breath in and out in anger I wish I was in the hospital in pain anything for Perrie. She unplugs the the machines and now she's on her own. We watch in silence as everyone cries silently. I see Perrie's mom run out in tears as her family follows. I walk over to Perrie and kiss her lips softly for the past time as i feel tears onto my face. Wait! I though she kissed back for a second but she didn't it was false.

I turn and cover my face as I was about to fall the the floor the girls catch me and hold me as we all cry historically at the loss of bestfriend, lover, ray of sunshine, and my world.

"Girls"

CLIFF HANGERRR!!! Y'all probably hate me for not updating for a while a hurricane is coming where I live if you have hear about hurricane Irma and Jose I have been busy packing trying to see if it's coming directly towards me if I need to evacuate or not so sorry. Hope you enjoy! who said "girls" was it Perrie or is this really the end?