The Immortal Blade Trilogy: Book #1: Fate's Destiny.

Is It True?

We made it back to Lothandra four days ago, and Quinlan has not said a word to me. He probably forgot about me. I guess he just wanted to ruin my life by taking me away from my family, giving me a new father, pretending to like me, then forgetting about me. Not that unusual for boys to do (no offence boys). 

I've been hiding up in my room for the past four days, door locked, not even eating food. No one even seemed to notice. I fell into depression for the first time ever. Why did I have to be here? Is it worth my brothers life? I couldn't think of the answer. I don't even feel anything anymore. It's a horrible thing to have happen to you. I don't even want to live. Death would be a better feeling than this. I have to stop thinking like this. I tell myself. I know what I'll do.

It was on this day, that I unlocked my door, climbed all the way down the thousands of wooden stairs, made my way to the underground armoury, grabbed some throwing daggers, and killed every training dummy in the room. The first few times, I really didn't want to be doing this, so I wasn't throwing with enough power, and kept missing. I actually had to get myself mad, before I could hit it. And after I was mad, there was no stopping me. I threw every dagger that I had.

I. Am. So. Mad. I collapsed by a wall, hugged my knees to my chest, and started crying uncontrollably. Why me?? Why did this have to be me? Why did this have to happen to me? Why... me...? I heard a door open, and knew that someone else was entering the room. I jumped up and tried to demolish any signs of crying. Quinlan walked into the room. I glared at him with burning hatred in my eyes. He looked at me with an understanding look. I stomped past him, heading for the door, but was stopped my a firm, but soft hand, grabbing my arm and turning me around to face him.

"Alexandra... you've been crying..." He says softly.

"No I haven't. Now let me go." I command.

 "I can't... I've tried and tried, but I just can't. That's why I'm here. To apologize for trying to let you go, when I really couldn't. I hurt you Alexandra-" 

"Yes. You did. Now let me go before I make you." I cut him off and snap at him.

He grabs onto my shoulders and takes a step towards me. I look down and take a step back.

"Alexandra, I've been wrong. Love is forbidden here in Lothandra. So I've been trying to stop loving you." He explains softly and takes another step closer. I step back again, and hit the wall.

"I've been trying to force myself to stop loving you by shutting you out. Only now did I realize that I've only been hurting you." He takes another step closer.

I have no place to go, so I just stay where I am, backed up against the wall, staring into his deep dark eyes. He moves one hand on my cheek, and the other behind my head.

"I can't do this anymore Alexandra. I've been shutting you out because I can't stand not loving you. Every time I look at you, I see the person I want to be with forever. I've been feeling like this ever since I saw you trapped in that cage. And now I'm the one trapped in a cage. A cage that only you can break. It's a cage of anger, and I deserve to be in this cage. But will you free me Alexandra?" He stares deep into my eyes, with a look of regret on his face.

"Quinlan..." I start.

"Please? I can't live without you anymore. I can't do this any longer. I don't care if love is forbidden. Please, don't be mad at me. Please forgive me." He begs.

"Quinlan, I love you. I just thought you were like everyone else. Pretending to like me, then leaving. I thought you didn't love me. I do forgive you." I say and look down.

He lightly pushes his body up against mine and lifts my face up to look him in the eye. He bends down and kisses me softly. I close my eyes, and wrap my arms around his neck. I return the kiss, and his arms drop to my waist, holding me tightly, but gently. His lips felt like they were made for mine. My body resting against his felt like the most natural thing in the world. I tried to calm my racing heart. I never wanted this moment to end. I hear a gasp, not coming from me, or Quinlan, and quickly break the kiss. I see one of Lothandra's guards standing in the doorway, and sprint over to him.