Dream Breaker

Chapter 20

I’m running away from the school with tears in my eyes and a big lump in my throat. I was stupid and selfish to trust Harry. He did say he will ruin me and he did. The whole school thinks I’m a slut and I’m alone again.  Thank you Harry….

I get to my block and I stop automatically when I see Jacky and Kaylee smiling at me with cruelty. What the hell are they doing here? I see them walk towards me with a wicked grin. I feel more warm tears come down my face making me feel like shit.

“So how has your morning been? Good? I could see that.” Jacky says with a smile. I feel my blood turn to ice and I want to scream at them but I can’t find words to say.

“And stealing my boyfriend makes you the hoe that people say you are. I mean what the fuck do they see in you? I guess just another bitch they could fool around with.” Kaylee says while staring at me with hatred. I feel my hands twitching to cut myself again. Just a cut and my pain goes away with it. Just one….

“Are you going to fucking answer me?” Jacky shouts at me. I dig my nails to my palm feeling the pain that I love.  Before I could answer I hear a familiar voice.

“What the fuck are you doing to her?” I turn around and see Josh standing there with his helmet in his hand. What is he doing here?! I turn around and see Harry’s car coming down the street. Oh gosh what’s going to happen? I’m literally praying to god nothing far worse than this….

“Oooh is he the other person you fucked with? What’s your name cutie? It’s a shame you are defending her I mean she is a slut.” Jacky says. I feel lightheaded and vomit rising up to my throat. I want to shout but that’s when I see Harry coming down the street with a pissed off face. Please please…. Let me die..

“What? How dare you call Delilah a slut you low life bitch!” Josh screams at Jacky. I grab his shirt feeling a little lightheaded. By that time Harry is there with us and I know something is going to happen.

“What the hell is happening here?” Harry asks with his deep voice.

“Tell her that it was a bet… Tell her that you just fooled with her and probably is fooling around with the motorcycle boy.” Jacky says. I look up at Harry and he has an unreadable expression. That’s when I burst.

“YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD KEEP SHIT FROM ME? YOU ASSHOLE I HEARD THE FUCKING STORY! YOU PLAYED ME AND NOW I’M FUCKING SICK! FUCK WHAT I SAID AND FUCK ALL THOSE KISSES AND MY FUCKING BEATING HEART! AND YOU..” I turn to Jacky and Kaylee..”GO FIND A LIFE YOU FUCKING SELFLESS BITCHES WITH A STUPID FUCKING LIFE! NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!” and with that I go up to Jacky and punch her so hard in her jaw that causes her to fall to the ground. She falls unconscious with a bleeding nose. I turn to a shock Josh and turn around immediately before they can say anything else. I feel so much emotions including satisfaction. I’ve never punched someone or caused a big scene. Jesus is giving me light for the very first time. I hear shouts but the only thing that I hear are the demons inside of my head telling me things. It’s giving me reason to cut and reasons to die but I’m strong….Am I really strong enough to fight them off?

I get home and rather than going inside I go to the backyard finding the place I buried my blade. The demons are winning.

 I’m searching when I feel a warm hand grab my cold hand. I look up and see its Josh looking at me worriedly. I feel sobs coming out and I end up in my favorite place..in Josh’s arms. I can’t stop and I know if I don’t let it out I will never will. And I will add more and more stuff to my life’s mess. I know I’m mumbling things but I can’t understand what I’m saying. When I finally do understand I’m saying “Why me” over and over again. The only thing that’s going through my head is the bad things in my life and the meaningless of it. I feel Josh’s shirt soaked with my tears so I remove my face but he tightens his arms around me.

”I’ll never hurt you my poor lovely Delilah… I love you..” and his words calm the demons in my head. After an hour or so I look up at Josh. His eyes are shades of blue which calms me.

“I’m sorry.” I say. His sad smile appears.

“Don’t be. I’m thankful I came to visit you on time or heavens know what could have happened.” I smile.

“Come with me Delilah. I’ll go to college starting next week in New York and I could share my apartment with you. Forget this fucking place and start somewhere new. Please?” he asks. I sigh. One more month and I turn 18. That’s when I have the right to do whatever I want. Just one more month…

“Just one month and I’ll go with you. However I will drop out of school now and find a job at New York later on. I promise.” I say. He looks at me as if he’s thinking about but then nods. I hug him and thank him for everything. We talk for a while more, well more like the whole day.

“I need to stay the night so can I stay with you?” he asks when it’s night already. I smile.

“Of course.” We end up going in for dinner and going to sleep. You guys might think wrong but I had always slept on the same bed as him. I don’t feel uncomfortable or weird which makes it nice. We say goodnight and I feel a poem rising inside of my head.

I said goodbye

But you didn’t apologize.

You stood there as a fool

And I ran away with a pool

Of my lifeless cries.

I’m strong

But my conscience screams I’m wrong

Demons are overpowering me

So will you help me in need?

Oooh foolish me

Why would I believe you?

You walked away when I asked if it was true….

Sorry it was short but well I’m hungry and my goal was to finish it before lol. Love you guys and I hope you enjoyed! Oh by the way the poem I wrote it so idk if it’s the best but is worth the shot. Love ya xoxoxo! Gossip Girl lmao xD love that show!