We do end up going to a special place if you call it going to the movies then going to the park for a picnic.
We both lay down on the grass looking at the sunset. I’m getting sleepy but I try my best to stay awake for Josh.
“Delilah?” Josh asks. I turn my head to face him. The orange of the sky is reflecting on him making him more beautiful than he already is.
“Yeah?” I say sleepily.
“When I saw you at school you were frowning and looked a little pale. Is everything okay?” he asks worriedly. Can I tell him that Harry wants to ruin me? Or how I saw my dead mother’s spirit? I can’t. I will scare him away and he’s the only person I have.
“No just .. I hate being a new girl. I guess I’m just missing my parents..You know?” I know that he knows I’m lying.
“You haven’t been cutting yourself right?” he says worried. I smile.
“No Josh.”
“Okay …. Phew!” he replies with relief.
Yes I used to cut myself. The bracelets I wear in my wrists covers the old scars that are fading away. I actually didn’t have a reason why I cut myself. I just did. Sometimes to wash off the painful memories of not seeing my brother or when I was stressed out with life.
Only Josh knows and he will be the only one to know…
“Delilah I have to go catch my plane. Wake up.” He says after I fell asleep on his shoulder.
“ Hmmm?” I say sleepily.
“C’mon beautiful. Let’s go.” He says before picking me up from the ground. I get startled and ask to be put down. He does what I say and I smiled because this is his first time he listens to me. I grab his arm and I feel his biceps under. They’re so strong that I want to squeeze but it will turn awkward and nope I don’t want that. We drive silently to my house. I get off and put the helmet where I was.
“Is this the last time I’m going to see you?” I ask him. He smirks.
“Of course not Delilah. I’m coming back for a visit even if I waste my college allowance.” He smiles. He leans down and gives me a kiss on my cheek. “Bye my dear lovely Delilah.” He says to my ear and starts his motorcycle. I see his grin and I see him drive away. I’m left standing there smiling after he left.
I go inside my house and see a person standing there that I haven’t seen for over 5 years.
My brother …. Derek.
“Derek?” I say with a squeaky voice.
“Hey sis.” He says with a smile.
“ Screw you!” I scream and walk out the door. I head to the backyard where I know I could breathe. I want to scream so loud.
“Delilah wait… Please let me explain.” He says with a wary voice.
“Explain what?! How my brother didn’t want to take care of me or take me in? Or how you never visited me when our parents were here. Why now! Huh? You felt bad for your little sister? Where were you when I needed you?” I scream every word with tears rolling down my face. I feel sick to my stomach and I want to vomit so badly.
“Delilah I’m leaving tonight… I’m going to the army. I’m sorry sis.” He says with a sad tone. I feel my whole world stopped working. I don’t feel tears or my body or my life.
“What?” I whisper.
“ I’m sorry. I love you but I can’t live here peacefully. I promise to stay alive for you. I promise.”
“You can’t! You promised mom and dad! You said you won’t join!” I say with tears in my mouth and my eyes.
“Yes I did but they’re gone now.” He says. I’m standing there stupefy. He comes closer to me and hugs me. “I promise you sis. I’ll stay alive for you and only you.” He whispers in my ear. I cry in his shoulder hugging him so hard not wanting to never let go.”Bye” he finally says and lets me go. I stand there for so long trying to make my body respond with my brain.
When it finally responds I head inside the house finding my aunt sitting in the chair. I don’t look at her when I go upstairs. I go to my room to get my clothes and my bathroom bag and head to the bathroom. I put down my stuff next to the tub and I start to get naked. I turn on the water and go inside the shower. My body doesn’t work properly so I decide to sit down. I grab my bag and take out my blade. I hold up my left wrist and start cutting myself until I don’t feel any more pain in my heart just numbness. I let go of the blade and I hear it hit the floor noisily. I sit back and close my eyes. I feel the blood dripping down my wrist and falling down the tub. I open my eyes and only see red everywhere.
I’m sorry mom and dad…..I’m sorry I can’t be the good girl you wanted… sorry
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Dream Breaker
FanfictionThere is a boy I meet and he is in disguise to ruin me. But what happens when he sees that I'm no stronger than anything. I'm sick with a disease so will this story be my happily dream? oooh please I don't believe in happily ever stories. made by...
