Broken And Lost (MCR × Reader)

Am I okay?

Me and Mikey had fun at my house because we were dancing around like crazy. Then Mikey received a message from Gerard
"Are you hanging out with (Y/N)?"- Gerard
"Yea I am"- Mikey
"Why?"- Gerard
"Because she invited me over"-Mikey
"Are you okay mikes" you asked "yea, I'm fine" Mikey said "okay" you said "well it's getting late I should probably start heading home" Mikey said sounding disappointed, you walked over to him and kissed him a good night

MIKEYS POV
She kissed me, I felt sparks inside of me, maybe I had a chance with her I thought, as I started walking home realizing that Gerard was about to lecture me.

GERARDS POV
Mikey walked in the door and I ran upstairs "what the hell were you doing there" I spat "I told you she invited me over" mikey hissed "so did you fuck her?" I asked seeming pretty pissed "no we didnt fuck yet, but we kissed twice" Mikey said with an evil grin "WHAT THE FUCK MIKEY I SAID I LIKED HER" I said, sounding a lot more pissed "WELL MAYBE SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU" he yelled making tears threaten to come out of my eyes, I ran down stairs and started to cry
~~~~~Time skip~~~~~

YOUR POV
I got ready for school like normal still not eating
~Time skip~
Your at lunch and you went to sit down and when you did Gerard got up and ran away you chased after him but he was to fast so you sat back down to only find ray and Mikey "What's wrong with gerard" you asked, as soon as Ray realized you were there he got up and walked away as well "Mikey what the fuck is going on" I asked sounding a little annoyed "well I may have gotten into a fight with Gerard and told him about our kisses" Mikey said "geesus (see what i did there lol) fuck Mikey but why wont the others talk to me" you sounded concerned "they are mad because you hurt gee" he said "how the fuck did I hurt Gerard it's not like were dating" you started getting annoyed "no but he likes you and so do I" his face faded at the end "wait you do?" I asked, he shook his head yes, well I gotta sort this out with them
~~~~time skip, music~~~~
Your teacher gave you another free period, so you approached frank "hey, um Frank, I'm really sorry abou the whole Gerard thing I didn't know that he liked me" I said hoping for forgiveness "I'm not mad at that and when I found out about the kisses, i was upset because I like you to" he said as his voice faded out "is that why you seemed upset when Mikey was holding me yesterday?" I said kind of upset "Yea I wanted that to be me holding you" he said really upset "i-i-im sorry" I said ready to cry "for what?" Frank asked "This is all my fault, if I hadn't kissed Mikey the second time, as the first one we were caught up in the moment (you were lying bc you didn't want them to know Mikey did anything wrong), and you guys are better off with out me" I said choking back tears "you didn't do anything wrong it was us acting like idiots, especially me, I like you a lot (Y/N)" he said and I went to go speak but he kissed you, frank and you pulled away and Mikey watched everything happen he saw frank kiss you, and he knew frank did it to make him mad, you were so upset and then someone yelled "see she is a whore" and other things similar, you wanted to run but your "parents" were already mad at you for skipping a couple times so you just sat at your desk
~~~~~ another time skip~~~~~
You were at your locker when Gerard walked up "(Y/N) I'm sorry, I heard what happened in music, Mikey told me" he said "geesus fuck that's great another reason to hate me" you said sounding annoyed "If i hated you then why would I do this" then Gerard kissed you, frank and Mikey saw him do it and the names came at you again and you ran fast, you ran past the bus and straight to your house. You called Mikey but he hit ignore and that's when you decided to get the blades again, once again you found your self with more than 10 cuts on each arm wrapping your arms up again. You walked to your bed and thought about..... suicide and you thought hard and you ran to the family bathroom to see what kind of medication was in there, you found some prescribed pills and ran to see if u had alcohol and of course you did then you ran back up stairs, your phone was going off and it was Mikey you didn't wanna answer so you let it ring and realized there were messages from mikey and others numbers
Mikey missed call (5)
Mikey text message (10)
Unknown number missed calls (30)
Unknown number text messages (105)
Other unknown missed calls (45)
Other unknown text messages (50)
You looked at the unknow numbers and realized that they were Gerard and frank so you saved them in your phone and then you received a text from Gerard
"Me, frank, and Mikey are coming to your house, right now"- Gerard
You just got that and thought now or never as you opened the beer can and prescribed pills and chugged both down. you were starting to black out when you heard three voices scream "(Y/N)" and next you know, you heard voices talking and they were your "parents" they were talking about the "incident" and you coughed and they realized you were awake, "So (Y/N) tell me about the "incident"" the doctor asked so you began "well ever sense my dad lost his job, he began drinking and taking drugs, he would abuse my mom and I, until one day he beat her so bad, that she died" you started crying but continued "my mom had always protected me from him and i watched it happen, I was only about 6 or 7 when I watched my dad beat my mother to death, and when I turned 9 my father had his friends rape me, a-an-an-and that kept happening as the abuse got worse I ended up living with my grandmother who got cancer shortly after I moved in, so I had to go back and live with the monster, but everything got worse when I got into 8th grade, my dad would call me names as well as the kids in my school, then my grandmother passed away and I became depressed, then 10th grade came and my dad punched me in the face when his new girlfriend was their and she contacted police, she ended up taking me until I tried to commit suicide and I asked her to put me in foster care because I didn't want her to worry about me she wouldn't do it at first until I forced her to do it and we cried together before i left, and that's why I'm here because they took me in, and I understand if they wanna put me in foster care as I'm only 16 and I can't live in NY own yet" you said sobbing "oh no honey we would never do that to you we knew the responsibility and thats why we took you" your mom said "thank you mom and dad" I said with a smile they smiled as well because you never called them that
~~~~~ Time skip~~~~~
You've been out of the hospital for 1 month and you were ready to go back to school, so you got ready, when you got to the school everyone looked at you but you just kept walking and walked to your locker when you got there the boys were waiting and before you could say anything they were already hugging you, and the day went on amazing and it went really fast as well
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Hey guys so I made this one and if there is anything spelled wrong then I will fix it later but I'm feeling pretty good and it took me forever to wrote this because I had ideas flying out of my head lol but until next time
P.S, I drank an energy drink yo stay awake and write this and im tired now lol but until tomorrow my lovleys :)