Broken And Lost (MCR × Reader)

Hurt

The next day you woke up and put on a green day shirt, black jeans, and brushed your hair, you also did your makeup like usual. You did the same as yesterday but this time you didn't eat because you didn't have time. You walked to the bus stop, put in your headphones and waited for the bus. Finally you arrive at school you went to your first class which none of the boys were in and you didn't want them to be because you figured they only wanted to be your friend for sex. The day went by pretty fast as now your at lunch you weren't hungry and didn't eat again, then the boys sat down, you quickly got up and ran out you heard people yelling "good job you hurt that freak show" and such things then you heard the thing you hated to hear most "you showed the fat fucking slut". You started crying and ran to the bathroom where you made your self throw up bc your anorexic and you had been for the past year, even though you haven't eaten anything in the last 3 days besides breakfast yesterday. The bell rang and you ran to music and just for your luck Mikey and frank were in it. There was another free period. Frank asked you "why have you been ignoring us" you said nothing then Mikey tried "did we do something wrong please talk to us" still you said nothing they kept trying and frank was getting mad and than screamed "answer you pathetic fat bitch" you felt tears threatening to come out of your eyes, so ran out of the classroom with Mikey chasing after you. Finally he catches up to you "sorry abo-" but you cut him off "Yea you should be sorry, I didn't here one thing from you guys when they said shit in the cafeteria and then what they said, what frank said it just hurt" you said and your voice sounded angry but upset "do you wanna talk about it" Mikey asked, you shook your head no and started walking away, Mikey kept yelling after you but you didn't listen, you just headed back to the bathroom, you waited for the next bell because you wanted to talk to Ray because he hasn't hit on you yet, finally it rang and you ran to the next class to find ray making out with some girl as Gerard was walking in you were running out being called names so you ran home, and your house was about 1 mile away from the school, you knew your "parents" wouldn't be home till late. When you got home you ran up the stairs and to your room, you looked for the box of razor blades and finally found them, you ran to your bathroom and locked the door and started to let the razor begin to slice your arm saying something for each cut because you new that every cut meant something, by the time you were done you had about 10 cuts on both arms, you wrapped you arms up and checked your phone
Mikey missed calls (20)
Mikey text messages (50)
He seemed worried as he didn't see you in your last period class but you didn't care you just didn't want to be there anymore
~~~next day~~~
I put on a long sleeve and did the usual. And got to school and once I walked off the bus the names were being spat at me and then someone pushed me down and I started to get kicked in the ribs and face, after a few times the kicking had stopped and you laid there helplessly when you were getting up you realized that your sleeve was pulled up and you could see the cuts then you heard "awww the fat bitch cuts herself why doesn't she just kill herself" ome girl snickered, and more comments along the lines when you went to get up you got kicked again but this time hard enough to break your rib, luckily it only bruised. You got up and went on with the day anyway, but then lunch came and you couldn't get up and run away from the table bc your rib hurt to bad but when the boys started coming over you wanted to run so bad, frank didn't even bother talking to you and the others just whispered and then you looked up and suddenly the 3 looked at you, except frank "What happened yesterday" Gerard asked me but I just put my head back down as I knew that i had bruises on my face from being kicked "what the fuck happened to your face" Mikey asked sounding angry "nothing" you said quietly "no it's not nothing it looks like you were beat the fuck out of" Mikey said sounding more furious "it really was nothing I just got beat up by some guys" you said still in a whisper slowly looking up and the 4 were staring at you, "who the fuck did this" Mikey said again get more furious " i-i don't know I was being kicked in the face and ribs I couldn't see" you said " is that who they were yelling at this morning in the front" ray asked "yea" you said "Wait you were the one that they were yelling at because you cut your self" ray asked again you didn't answer you just looked at your arms when suddenly someone grabbed you and pulled you up, it was frank he pulled you into the hall "let me see your arms" he said, you slowly gave him your arms as he yanked up the sleeve not caring that you flinched in pain "why the fuck would you do this to yourself" he asked with anger you didn't answer "I said why the fuck did you do this to yourself you little worthless piece of shit" he said very angry "i-im sor-" but you cut him off "I did this because I am worthless so thanks for reminding" you started to walk away but frank grabbed you and he said "I'm sorry (Y/N)" you looked at him and you were crying "your not sorry or you would have realized how much pain you caused me with the awful things you said to me today and yesterday" than you ran to music because the bell was about to ring. "You guys have another free period" your teacher announced "great" you said in your head, than Mikey walked over "listen you don't have to tell me what's going on but just let me hold you and comfort you" Mikey asked with a little hope in his voice you nodded a yes and he held you and told you that everything would be okay, you saw frank look over and he looked mad, sad, and jealous at the same time
~~~~~ end of the school day~~~~~
"Do you wanna come over" I asked Mikey "I would love to" he said with joy in his voice and you guys started to walk to the bus when you got on names were being spat at you until Mikey said "don't call her names you fucking little prissy princess" and everyone was so shocked that they didn't even talk the rest of the ride, you finally get off at your stop "What's been going on" Mikey asked "well I heard you and Gerard fighting over me so I figured you guys only wanted me for sex, but you were so caring and I knew that i thought wrong of you, and frank he has been being so mean to me lately that when he said that to me in music yesterday, i waited to go talk to Ray, but I found him hooked on some girls face, and I figured that it was because people thought you guys were mean to me, and this morning I got kicked in the ribs pretty hard but I just got a bruise and it's feeling better now" you said ready to cry "I-i-i-im so sorry" "it's not your fault really" you said "its-" you got cut off by Mikey kissing you, and you kissed back, finally you guys pulled back for air then started towards your house