The week was going slow, it was only Tuesday. But you haven't seen Gerard around, Mikey was around a lot but never during lunch, frank and ray were always at lunch and they were worried too because the way brothers haven't showed up at lunch. So you guys decided to go look in the music room where Mikey said he would be. But when you go there he was no where to be found. You, Ray and Frank were getting really worried so you guys split up, you took the gym, frank took the art room, and ray took the regular classrooms. When you got to the gym you heard someone crying and another person saying soothing things, you realized it was mikeyband Gerard. You listened to them
"Its okay gee"
"Its not mikes, I loved her, and I hurt her, it's all my fault"
"No gee it's not your fault, that she is a bitch, she doesn't deserve you, she isn't even good enough for you"
Those words hurt you so much
"Then why are you dating her Mikey"
"To make her feel better gee"
You ran and you found ray and frank
"There in the gym" you were crying really bad "calm down (Y/N), what happened?" Ray asked "Mikey said he was dating me to make me feel better and that I'm a bitch, also I don't deserve Gerard because I'm not good enough for him" "that fucking bastard" frank spat running towards the gym
"Frank come back" you and ray yelled running after him. When frank got into the gym you see him going towards Mikey, Mikey looks at you and she's that your crying "What's wrong (Y/N)" "you, I heard what you told Gerard" you dryer in to Day's chest "YOU YELL AT GERARD FOR HURTING A GIRL AND BREAKING HER WHEN YOU DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO FIX HER, AND IN THE END (there's a fade into the night woah, I'll go home lol) YOU HURT HER WAY MORE" before Mikey could speak frank already punched him, Gerard was trying to pull frank off but it didn't work so he ran near me and Ray "(Y/N) I'm really sorry all this happened" you look at him with tears rushing down your face and ran out, you ran home you were done, you seriously were broken and lost, you were just a lost cause that they found, when you got home you knew exactly what you needed to do so you got the blade and went to the bathroom, by the time you were done you had cuts on your arms and legs, you again wrapped your self up and went to sleep
~Time skip brought to you by Gerard's left eyebrow~
You wake up and realize how much weight you lost overnight from not eating that much and the blood you lossed, you got up and got ready and you ate a lot for breakfast because you knew that you needed it. You did the usual and arrived at school. You were greeted by frank and all he said was "I'm sorry" before you can answer he walked away. You thought he was apologizing for yesterday.when you got to your locker, you saw Mikey and gee, Mikey looked like he got hit by a car, Gerard looked like he hasn't gotten sleep. You walked away as you didn't want to see them, and for ypur luck you numbed into Ray "I'm sorry mi- (Y/N), why are you in long sleeves and pants, and why do you look so skinny" you didn't want to answer so you walked away put he grabbed your wrist, he noticed that you flinched in pain "no you didn't (Y/N), have you even been eating correctly?" "No i ate a lot this morning" you said in a whisper, Mikey and Gerard walked past you and realized something was wrong l, but you knew that they didn't care so you walked away.
~another time skip brought to you by juju Simms hair~
It was lunch but you didn't want to sit at the table. You felt a tap on your shoulder "you look lonely wanna hang outside with me and my friends" you turned around to see a beautiful boy with blue eyes and dark hair "I'm sorry I'm Jake, and you are?" (No it's not anyone famous just a made up correcter) "I'm (Y/N), and i'd love too" you followed Jake outside to a group of people "that's, jj, Devin, and Aiden, and this is (Y/N)" Jake said "hey (Y/N" they said in perfect unison that it made you giggle "well (Y/N) We have beer and weed if you want any" Aiden offered, you new it was bad but you didn't care you wanted to "Fuck yea" you said making them laugh, you ended up skipping "you know your fucking hot" Jake said "why thank you Mr. Marvin Gaye" you said laughing and then he kissed you (you guys are at his house just you two) you kissed back not caring at all, you wake up the next morning at 3 am and you quickly get your cloths on and leave realizing what you did, while you were leaving you realized you were in the boys neighborhood, and they all were outside except frank, whose house ypur about to pass great you thought, you saw frank coming out "what are you doing around here (Y/N)" he asked you "I'm um well I slept wi- over Jakes house the one that lives 2 houses down" you said and when you looked back you saw Ray, Mikey, and, Gerard giving you weird looks "WHAT THE FUCK, WHY HIM, WHAT'S SO GREAT ABOUT HIM, WHY NOT ME" Frank screamed "I was drunk and fucking stoned so he wanted me to be safe" you said "HIM WANT YOU TOO BE SAFE, HE WAS PROBABLY HOPING TO FUCK YOU" frank was still screamjng making the 3 guys run towards you two but you started to run away the 3 caught up to you "what happened back there" Mikey asked "LIKE YOU ACTUALLY FUCKING CARE REMBER YOU ONLY WANTED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, AND I'M A BITCH AND NOT GOOD ENOUGH THE ONLY ONE THAT WAS HELPING ME WAS RAY" YOU SCREAMED realizing that frank could see you and he heard it "THE ONLY ONE THAT PROTECTED ME FROM YOU WAS FRANK AT LEAST HE WANTED ME TO FEEL SAFE AND HE PROBABLY ACTUALLY FUCKING LOVES ME UNLIKE YOU TWO" you screamed and then ran, you didn't go to school and they were blowing up your phone, frank said that he got suspended so he came to your house, "I'm really sorry about earlier I just don't trust Jake" frank said "it's okay frankie" and then you guys continued watching the movie
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Ok guys so I'm sorry for any mistakes and I kinda just wrote what came into my mind but some things I already had in mind and sorry for not updating yesterday I was too busy texting my frens and scaring the fuck out of people in Wal-Mart lol but until next time lovleys :)
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Broken And Lost (MCR × Reader)
Fiksi Penggemar(I wrote this when I was in middle school so I apologize) THERE IS A TRIGGER WARNING SO IF U ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY CUTTING, DEPRESSION, SUCIDAL THOUGHTS AND SUCH DON'T READ ALSO USES PROFANITY BUT I DON'T THINK YOU GUYS CARE BUT HAD TO PUT THAT I...
