Being a Trans Boy

24th July 2017 - Childhood Experiences

As a kid, I always felt that I was supposed to be a boy. At one point, mum even told me that doctors had said I was a boy, but I was covering my lower area with my hand so it was hard to tell.

Between the ages of, about, 3-6 years old, I would only respond to being called George, and everyone must have thought it was some kind of joke or silly gimmick but went along with it.

Around this time, I would also refuse to wear a shirt while at home, mainly cause mum would force me into one when we were to go out. I swam without a shirt, slept without a shirt and would even sometimes run around the park without a shirt. It was just a lot more comfortable than anything. (Except that my back would get really itchy.)

Between the ages of 2 and 7, I believed that a fairy of some kind (kind of like the tooth fairy) was gonna bring me my penis and that's how I thought it worked (don't judge plz).

By the time I was 6, my brother was about 2 years old, and I would get super jealous of him because of the cool 'boy' clothes that he got to wear and I was forced into wearing something pink with writing on it saying "Mummy's little princess" or something.

I also got really jealous about the fact that my brother always got new clothes and, cause I have 2 older sisters, I always got the stupid, hand-me-down girly clothes that my sisters had. Since the youngest of the two oldest was such a "girly girl", that got pretty bad, resulting in short jackets, short shorts and singlets with frills and glitter.

By the time I was about 10, I was able to cut my hair short for the first time, which really made me feel better and I was really happy. I was also able to wear clothes from the boy's section at Target and I felt great.

However, all good things eventually come to an end and I had to go to high school. Not only did this mean I had to wear a skirt, but I had also been made to grow my hair out and my boobs had started coming in. Among this, it was a catholic school so anything a little bit 'out of the norm' was frowned upon or disregarded as a stupid thought. I even had friends that were homosexual but kept it to themselves because of the environment we were in.

But anyway, it's definitely getting better now and I'm happy people know, and I'm able to be myself.

Anyway, catch ya later~

- Kody