breathe • shitposts #1

shit.

i don't think people really understand how much words can hurt.

i'm ok - well, i'm not. but i'll be ok. i'm working on it. and when i get back from being stuck in a car with my family for a week it'll only be a short while before i can move downstairs and have some space to breathe. and then, idk, maybe i'll get to see some people i've missed. i've been very isolated this summer, and i miss my friends terribly. and then, school. august 26. only about a month away. and to be honest, i'm almost looking forward to it this year. i haven't in years, but now i really want to get back. i'm sure i'll be disillusioned quickly, but right now it's nice to think of. for one, i'll have a purpose again. something to distract my thoughts and do something productive. math always helped with that. also, i'll get to see my friends. that's a big thing, especially as i've seen three of them this whole summer. i'm also looking forward to the activities. i want to be in the gsa, on the school speech team, in the play, in marching band, in choir, maybe even the quidditch team or some other clubs i haven't heard of yet. (oh yeah, our school has a quidditch team. which is clearly pretty fucking awesome.) i just ... i guess i'm feeling lonely today. also, my mom tried to force me to take a shower, but i just couldn't go through with it, which felt really odd and i think it threw me off a bit. i'll probably update later, i just needed to get this off my chest.