Chibs | Sick of being Used | Tig | Sons of Anarchy || Book Three

I Can't

My fingers laced around his kutte as I pulled him into me once I felt his lips land over mine. I felt his tongue press against my squished lips and I opened my mouth for him to enter.

Tig groaned grabbing me up underneath my thighs and walked me into the dark of the treeline. I gasped when I felt my back hit the trunk of the tree. His tongue swrilled around in my mouth as I lazily and drunkenly tried to push back with my own.

I had felt the sexual tension since the moment he got out of prison. It was small but it was suttle. The fact that he'd stand extremely close to me or the fact that he'd come start up a conversation but left it hanging in the air as he'd just look at me.

"Baby, I'm sorry."

He whispered against my lips as he used his body to press me up against the tree as he fumbled with his belt and zipper.

He said he was sorry. But the question was what was he sorry for?

"About what?"

I asked trying to catch my breath as he pulled away and started kissing along my neck. I heard his belt clank as he accomplished taking it off. My feet his the ground for a moment to allow him to undo my own pants.

"About everything."

He whispered yanking my pants down and turned me around to where I faced the tree. I placed my hands against the rough wood as I stood there. My heart felt like it was leaving a bruise against my ribcage.

I felt his hardened cock pressing against my entrance. My breath hitched when I heard a twig snap from behind us.

An angry yell snapped my mind out of my drunken, horny haze as I glanced behind me just in time to see Tig grabbed by someone.

"Get the fuck off her man! What the hell do you think you're doing!?"

Kozik snapped as he threw his brother down to the ground. I quickly pulled my clothing back up and watched as Tig rolled over onto his side to put his dick away.

My eyes were wide as Kozik looked at me shocked and confused as if asking what in the hell I was doing.

"What the fuck is your problem!"

Tig snapped as he cleaned himself up and stood up on his feet.

"My problem! What's your problem? She's with Chibs man! She's with one of your brothers!"

Kozik snapped. He had watched as Tig left the party and walked over toward Gemma and you. But when only Gemma returned pissed and Tig was no where to be found Kozik worried and went to find the two of them knowing full good and well the extend of their past together.

Kozik shook his head and placed his hands on his hips.

"Man, what would have happened if Chibs would have come back here and seen this? Clara, you think he'd be okay with this?"

Kozik questioned me. I lowered my gaze. Through the drunkenness I had gotten carried away. I had missed Tig and what he had told me earlier before the start of the party hadn't helped me to repress the feelings.

"Kozik it's not -- "

"You know she was pregnant with Chibs's kid?"

Kozik snapped looking at Tig. Tig's eyes widdened as he looked at me. He looked at me for the longest time as I refused to look at him. I could feel his eyes on me and when I finally looked at him, I could see the confusion in his eyes.

"His kid?"

I knew that tone. I tensed up. I seen Kozik looking between us confused until realization hit his face.

"Are you fucking kidding me!?"

He snapped throwing his hands up in the air and did a spin around as if trying to wrap his head around all of this.

"Hey, will you give us a minute."

Kozik just looked at Tig shocked. He looked at me then. He must have seen that nothing else was going to happen. Shaking his head he huffed and turned around walking away from the both of us.

Tig walked over to me slowly. He didn't touch me. He didn't say anything. He just looked at me.

I refused to look up at him.

"The kid... it was mine?"

He questioned. He wasn't even sure if Chibs was young enough anymore to have kids. Granted Tig himself wasn't a spring chicken, but he still got the job done.

"I -- I don't know."

"Bullshit was it mine!"

"I don't know!!"

I screamed back at him when he yelled at me. He clenched his teeth together and looked down at me. It was obvious that I didn't have a kid now, and he knew that Chibs would have never let me abort his child, so it came down to one thing.

He knew I lost the kid.

Shaking his head he placed his hands on his face and took a step back. He sighed deeply several times. I could tell he was trying to stay calm. I had seen Tig angry before, I knew he'd put his hands on me like before, so for once I kept my mouth shut.

"I can't do this shit."

He said under his breath as he turned and started walking away. I watched him wide eyed as he moved back toward the on going party. I hadn't noticed till now that I had been holding my breath. I inhaled deeply as I clenched my chest. My breathing hurt like hell right now as I felt hot tears rolling over my cheeks.

Of course I was having a fucking panic attack now out of all the times to have one.