Has anyone ever felt that tight feeling in your chest, deep deep in, and you just know something bad is about to happen?? A feeling that comes true??
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Anyway right now I'm here to talk about a sinking feeling. A feeling of absolute shit. Real fucking dread, loathing, and fear. You can't explain it, you can't wish it away.
Anxiety
Depression
This shit is real, it's not some made up thing to make you feel bad for me. This is a real thing that affects plenty of people. It needs professional help not "try harder" or "get over it" or anything.
Medicine/therapy/etc.
It feels like nothing is worth anything anymore. Nothing is worth doing, worth saying, worth thinking even. I have no motivation, I'm not lazy, I just literally cannot get myself to do anything.
It feels like a sharp pain from a knife, jabbed deep into my chest, blood trickling from the wound, my exposed nerves screaming in pain but no one hears. No one cares.
It feels like a sinking ship. Down down down it goes, my happiness, motivation, productivity, strength, everything. My lungs filling up with water begging for air, begging for release. My chest is burning, scratching, aching. No one is coming to save me, no one can.
I struggle to see the good in life, it's hard.
I can't sleep or I sleep too much.
I don't find pleasure in the things i once did.
I don't believe the good things people say about me and only believe the bad.
Small things get to me, a rustle of paper, a sneeze, a simple sentence, an assignment, a small movement.
Sometimes even just being around people makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack.
Everything is a struggle sometimes but I know I can get through it, I always do.
And I know you can too
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If you're going through something or believe you may have a mental illness or know someone who might, tell someone. Don't let it stay hidden, help is always there, in the form of a friend, teacher, parent, counselor, etc. reach out and someone will take your hand. ❤️
