I don't know why I'm doing this but I got this feeling to do it (I know weirdo). Do u remember in year 7 we would usually get on the bus together and one time I waited with Gino for u to finish your detention (but I didn't wait for u to come out I left before that) and a load of other things we did. I'm reminiscing the past because some days (not as much now) I just lay in my bed thinking what would have happened if I never told u I liked u, would it all be the same, different or just how it is now. When we went Blackpool that was the first time (I think) I had held an mini conversation with u and we made eye contact (It was one of those explainable moments of eye contact). I still wonder y it all went wrong (before I stirred shit) was it all my fault probably is. I ended our friendship because I felt like we weren't really talking much and when we did it was usually about girl 1 or girl 2. I felt like our friendship was all around them. Some days even now I kinda regret it and wondered if it would have ended anyway. After I ended our friendship it took me a good week for me to delete our DMS I don't y. I'm probably telling u this because I feel like it had to be said and I could never do this face to face. Also because I hope I would let go and forget about it all completely but maybe it was a life lesson for me to remember. Some days I feel completely like shit because of everything. I'm not saying this for your pity but just for me to feel better about it. Honestly it would probably make me feel even worse about it because I've never done anything like this before. But I really do want to be able to move on with or without u as a friend in my life and learn from this all.
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Lost In My Thoughts
RandomI wrote this when I was like 14 (now 17) damn I was something as child. These were collections of things I thought about or wrote but never sent to people. Read or don't. Totally up to you but I'm gonna keep updating with shit that I've thought of...
