*HELION*{SEQUEL TO SWITCHBACK!}

*Eleven*

Back on Deltar, I was still in mourning of my love...and lost all desires to live...or to take care of my two boys...Criss and Rachel took more care of them than I could...I just wasn't ready to be a single mom...my heart was shattered...every day I would walk thru the desert and pray that he would magically appear from the desert sand...and come back to me...but I knew it wasn't going to be. King Tal came to me all the time offering himself to take care of me and my children...and that he would love them as if they were his own...and love me unconditionally...I thanked him for his offer...but after Klayton...I no longer had any wants or desires for any man...the only men I spent time with...was Criss, Sully, and the kids.

The rest of our family pretty much split apart and decided to live their own lives happily within the city of Deltar's walls...Ashley and Siera and their son Adam...Andy, Dani, and their daughter Billie Jean...moved out of the palace and into the population, so they could live a normal everyday life...but they did visit us often. Sandy and Sully remained in the palace...but stayed pretty much to themselves and raising their toddler Skylar. Karalea kept pretty close to me...consoling me, knowing how much I missed her brother...because she missed him too...Jinnx was getting unnaturally protective of me since Klayton's passing...feeling that it was his duty to protect his sister in law...especially from that very clingy king...that was really getting on his and Criss's nerves...always bothering me like that.

Stutter was one of the only things that really consoled me...knowing that he was the only real thing that I had left that personally belonged to my Klayboy bunny. Wonder-pup was know fully grown...and now a Wondermutt instead...just like Klayton wanted to call him...he was all the kids' bodyguard and babysitter...as long as he was around the kids...no one messed with them. Rachel came over to me with my son Kiefer in her arms...and asked me if I wanted to hold my son...that Criss was coming out with Mickey as soon as he changed him...with Johnny's help. Kiefer reached out for me...and tried to say mom but all that came out was mah mah mah over and over again...which was very adorable...I sat down and held my son...sometimes when I held them I felt Klayton with me...other times when I held them...it hurt me so bad because I saw so much of him in them that I just couldn't handle it.

I was always begging Criss to just take the memories away from me...so it wouldn't hurt me anymore...but he would just tell me that doing that for me would be worse on me than the suffering...because no matter how hard the heartache was...it is a fact, that it was better to have known love and lost it...then to spend my entire life without knowing love at all...and what Klayton and I had was true love...and it should never be forgotten. I fell into his arms and cried...and begged him to keep King Tal off my back for a while...because if he keeps hounding me...I was going to go off on him...and it would end up causing all kinds of trouble for the rest of my family...and I didn't want that. Criss told me that I needed to tell him to leave me alone...and he needed to get the clue, that I didn't like him...or want him...then tell him that Klayton was the only one for me...then maybe he'd leave me alone. I told Criss as I was still in his arms...that Klayton was the only one for me...and I would never love again.

I thanked him though for his strong support...then I gave in and asked him to help me be the best mom I could be for my husbands' sons. Criss gave me a kiss on the cheek and said he and Rachel would show me the ropes and I would be the greatest mommy ever...by the time they were done teaching me...I smiled at him as I was holding Mickey, Rachel came down holding both Johnny and Kiefer, and asked Criss if he got me to come to my senses yet and do what Klayton would want her to do...take care of their babies...and love them unconditionally like he would have...but before Criss could answer her...I stood up and answered for him...and said that I was so ready to be their mommy...then I asked if she would help me. Rachel gave me a big hug and kiss, and told me that she would love to help me in any and every way she could...then grabbed Criss and said he would help too...because no one could ask for a better daddy figure.

I smiled at them both and said I believed it...because I never got the chance to see how good of a father Klayton would be...because he left me before they were born...but Criss and Rachel both told me that Klayton would have been one of the best daddy types just like Criss...because he was tough, brave, fearless, intelligent, and he loved me more than life itself...and proved it by giving me two very adorable sons...that will grow up to be just like their daddy. I thanked them both as tears streamed down my face as I was holding onto both of my boys now.

King Tal was watching me as I was finally getting my self-strength back from my loss...and thought that soon he would have a chance to make me his youngest and sexiest wife yet...but he had another thing coming...I didn't play the whole fourth wife scenario...or become anyone's house maid...and I sure as hell wasn't let any other man touch me...my Klayton was the first and only love of my life...and if he was gone for good...so was my love and my heart...the only love left in my heart was for my sons and my brothers and sisters...and that was it...and that was my final decision...no other man would ever have me.

King Tal came up to our room after Criss, Rachel and I put the three boys to sleep...he handed me a huge bouquet of flowers and asked me if I would take a walk with him...I thanked him for the flowers but I couldn't accept them...and I really was flattered about him offering me...but I just will never have or accept another man in my life...King Tal showed his anger and frustration out on the flowers...and stormed out...I looked at Criss, and told him that after I started that fire...it wasn't over with yet...and I had a feeling that the king was going to cause us all some real trouble after me denying him. Criss and Rachel both hugged me and said even so...we were all in this together...because unlike King Tal and this city...our family was a real family...and we never left anyone behind.