Its past six in the morning and i started to pack enough clothes for my trip. Lillan texted me the hostipal which happened to be hours away, in Bradford; St. Rodge Hospital.
When I finished, grabbed my bag and fling it on my shoulder, carefully slipping out of my room, not making noises.
"Liam, where are you going?", Shoot.
"I-I Im going to meet Harry, and h-have breakfast at h-his", I sluttered and Jeany cocked an eyebrow.
"This early? And that is not a school bag, that is a duffel bag", She said.
"I-I", She waited for my answer but i cant think of any and ran downstairs and grabbed Dad's keys, glad he left one of his car, well, how can he drive two cars at the same time? Common sense Liam. Common sense.
I drove all my way to Bradford. Of course, I brought enough money with me to use for food on my way. Wait. No Liam! No food! You need to focus on the road.
After hours and hours of driving, i finally reached the hospital, yes, without eating.
"Niall Horan please?" I asked the nurse and she creeped on a record. "Are you a friend?", I nodded. "Why are you here?", Oh my god, Of course i am here to visit Niall for Gods sake!
After I answered the questions, she finally gave me the number of Niall's room. I hurried my self to the elevator and to the rooms.
203
204
205
206
Finally, room 207.
I knocked three times and the door opened immediately.
"Liam!", Lillan popped out and hugged me as i embraced her back.
"How's Niall?", I asked. "He is still pale and still havent woke up", She said, stepping aside to make me enter the room.
I saw him, lying on the bed, pale and lifeless but still beautiful like a sleeping angel. I grabbed a chair and sat beside his bed, holding his hand.
"What happened?" I asked, frowning.
"We found him passed out inside his bunk when i called for dinner, he wont answer, we went inside the room and found him on his bunk", Lillan explained with worry on her voice.
"Excuse me?", I turned my head to see the doctor coming inside.
"I have bad and good news, what do you want to know first?", Lillan and I glanced at each other and said in unison, "Good news".
"Niall is going to wake up in a day or two, he just need a rest", We both nodded and i mentioned him to continue. "The bad news is, Niall is in a very unhealthy situation right know, His kidney cancer is in stage four which means a less amount of time of his life", My whole world stopped. He have kidney cancer. Niall have kidney cancer. The love of my life have kidney cancer.
"He seemed to keep it from everyone but himself in the past four years, if you dont have any questioned, i'll leave you with Niall", I nodded and bit my lower lip as i let out a shaky thank you.
My lips shive, the same with my hands. I can tell, Lillan is about to break down also, i can see it in her eyes.
I let my view to be blurred and as soon as i know, tears are flowing on my cheeks, like a never ending river. I looked at the blonde boy in front of me, so fragile and vulnerable. I've never seen him like this before. He is always happy and jumpy. His rosy cheeks are now pale and his warm hands turns to a shivery one.
Lillan patted my back and said, "I'll get us something to eat", i nodded and she exited the room.
"Hmm, this must be weird because you cant hear me, but i love you so much i will do anything to make uou feel better and live longer. I'm sorry if i hadn't see you struggling. I feel bad that i didnt even notice you are having a difficult time. Niall, please dont give up, you can get through this, i know you can. Please stay strong, at least for me, and for your fans. Please stay" My voice broke at the last sentence. I kissed his cold hand and sang a familiar song.
"I need some time just deliver the things that I need for now
Everything that I feel's like a warm deep calm casting over me
And it's taking me to somewhere new
If you believe that everything's alright
You won't be all alone tonight
And I'd be blessed by the light of your company,
Slowly lifting me to somewhere new
Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, you said
"Please understand if I see you again don't even say hello."
Please
What a night it is, when you live like this
And you're coming up beneath the clouds,
Don't let me down
All the love's still there I just don't know what to do with it now
You know, I still can't believe we both did some things
I don't even wanna think about
Just say you love me and I'll say "I'm sorry,
I don't want anybody else to feel this way"
No, no, no
Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, I said
"Please understand I've been drinking again, and all I do is hope"
Please... stay
Please stay
I'll admit I was wrong about everything
Cause I'm high and I don't wanna come down
All the fun that we had on your mothers couch,
I don't even wanna think about
I'm not strong enough for the both of us
What was I supposed to do
You know I love you
Whoa-oh
Please just stay
Stay"
I finished the song and my shirt is already soaked with tears. I feel so stupid staying here and saying that i love him but i know he will never feel the same.
