Chapter 26

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"Jesus Christ, woman! What the hell happened?" Alicia panics when she gets out of her car and see a me. I probably look like a shit show sitting outside of school with my mascara running down my cheeks from crying.

I shake my head and try to figure out what I want to say. "Harry.." Is all I can manage to spit out before I break down again, and she quickly moves to comfort me.

"It's okay, Addie... Come on, let's get you home." She helps me get up and leads me to her car before driving away from school. "Do you want to talk about it?" She asks after a few minutes of silence.

"I fucked up, Alicia." I laugh. I hate that word, but it seems appropriate in this situation.

"You did? I was sure that Harry did something..." She's just as surprised as I thought she would be.

"I told him I loved him." I continue to laugh, but this time I can't stop. I am so pathetic thinking Harry Styles might actually love me back, let alone thinking we could actually work. He doesn't want me to love him, he even said it to my face.

"You what?" Her eyes practically pop out of the sockets when they widen with surprise. "So I'm guessing he didn't say it back?" She asks carefully, trying not to add to my frustration,

"Nope, in fact he told me he doesn't want me to love him."

"Addie, I'm really sorry." She says as sympathetically as she can, but I know she thinks I'm crazy.

"I'm pathetic. It's official." I throw my hands in the air signifying my surrender. "Thanks for bringing me home, I'll se you tomorrow." I tell her once we get to my house.

"Not so fast Walker." She locks the door to prevent me from getting out. "One; you're not pathetic, and two; you're not leaving this car until we work through this."

I appreciate her willingness to help, but at this point, I'm exhausted and feel like there's no point in even trying. Harry said it himself, he doesn't want my love, so why should I even try any further?

I sigh and slump down in the seat of her car and let the tears flow again. I'm angry, sad, humiliated... Every and any emotion you could think of; that's me.

"Addie, I'm sorry if this comes out wrong, but you had to know he wouldn't react well to you saying something like that. I mean everyone's surprised that he even is calling you his girlfriend." She tells me.

"I didn't mean to say it. It just came out." I begin telling her the story of how he tried to have sex with me, but when I told him I wasn't ready and he apologized I said I loved him.

"Wow... I don't know what to say." She shakes her head. "If I didn't know any better, I'd say he loves you too, Addie. Harry Styles doesn't do girlfriends, let alone spend a night with a girl when she won't have sex with him."

"You've said that." I remind her.

"But I don't think you understand! You are the first girl he's spent more than a week with and not had sex with, let alone called his girlfriend. He obviously has strong feelings for you, I just think he's afraid to say it."

"Well I disagree. I think that he isn't capable of loving someone, and that it's a lost cause for me." I huff. "Thanks for picking me up, Alicia." I say wanting to end this conversation.

"Just give it time." She says sweetly, still trying to comfort me.

"I don't think that's necessary really, I'm pretty sure he just broke up with me." I admit. He didn't specifically say it, but he practically implied it.

She looks at me for a moment before a smile plays on her mouth. "Go freshen up, Walker, we're going out tonight."

"Not happening." I shake my head. Going out with Alicia sounds like a terrible idea.

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