22- Nightmare

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-Natsu-

"Goodbye."

"No!"

My hand outstretches in front of me, reaching for something that isn't there.

The same dream.

It won't go away. It's been reoccurring for months now. Always the same. Always leaving me to wonder.

I can never protect her. I try to, every time, but I can never reach her.

I don't know who she is. That's the worst part. Not knowing who this person is, that I feel a dire need to protect.

She's always ahead of me, with a radiant light around her to the point where only an outline is visible.

It's so bright, that I can barely ever see anything. I don't know what's happening, but I do know that the person will be gone when the light fades.

I can't really tell by looking, but somehow, I just know, that it's a girl.

I always reach to her, but I never make it.

Goodbye.

Always the same thing. And then she's gone, and I'm left waking up. Waking up to wonder why I feel so lost because of a dream.

A nightmare.

I hate that I feel so useless just from a nightmare. I feel so pathetic.

"It's just a dream, idiot."

My hands shake my hair as I mutter to myself, and my eyes stay trained down.

A sigh leaves my mouth.

Why am I being tortured with a figment of my imagination? It's not real, but yet such strong emotions are always pulled from me because of it.

I never let my nightmares bother me. In fact, I never used to even have nightmares. But, this one has been with me for almost three months. And, I can't help these emotions that swarm through me. They're overpowering. I don't know why I feel them, they're just there.

Loss, guilt, desperation, regret.

Whenever I get these nightmares, I always go on a walk to clear my head. Usually when I cross the little bridge, my head just kind of clears.

I want to stay awake, to walk. But if I do, I know where I'll walk to, and Erza is there. She'd kill me if I showed up in the middle of the night.

So instead, I stare up at the ceiling until dawn.

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