Her lovely ways

Figments of the mind

My mind always contained a sweet and lustrous image of her joy and her perfectly sweetened delightful scent and her filled with excitement voice. I think I'm going to keep this feeling inside until I know it's the right time but yet again when is this time ,I only have a month and about three weeks to graduate and I come close to school no more unless my sibilants have something.

Today in psychology we watched our last movie of the year,"I am Sam", the movie involves a father with the capacity of a one year old which has a daughter named Lucy ,her mother abandoned her after she was born. The movie is mainly about how Lucy and her father get along every day with his capacity. The class stopped where a john Lennon song was playing and the girl and her father were at a halloween school party. After the bell rang to go to forth period. As I walked to class,I noticed how many people grew blue and no one is around to turn there frown upside down. I kept thinking of how blessed I a to have such a good,hyped up,friendly personality and usually when I see others down I try to make them happy. I'm also friends with everyone from the capacities to the really intelligent,and the weird and popular and normal and so many, because I don't care who they are as long as they're friendly with me and if it wasn't for that wild friendly spunk I have,i would've never met Camelia.

As I walked to fifth period French class and waited for a friend, I saw two boys kiss,a quick peck as to not show anyone of their existence,my mind felt so amused and excited. They were such a cute couple even though it made me want a girlfriend more than usual. As a lesbian I jus felt so happy for then because they're proud of who they are and don't hide it from themselves and not date their type.

So far I'm having a fantastic day! Finally after school,yet again going to pick up Cat and looking at the stairs for signs of her,forgetting that my brother didn't go to school today. Then,a slight glance at the stairs and her eyes on me and her joyous wave of hello, a sign of her friendliness again. As I waved backi I turned to look for Cat and turned again,tovsee her no where around. I searched and searched and my mind just gave up and a thought of disappointment escaped to my heart until I saw her and she was still in the area and anxiously after Cat came out of her class I headed quickly towards her,her smile just embraced my feelings once more.

As we walked out the crowded halls ,I watched her liberal energetic spirit pass every walking soul and her eyes gripping onto everyone that passed by and searched for a way to get through. She's just so wonderful she's like a closed flower that when it finally blossoms you see the greatest beauty. When we arrived to the outside of the school,she asked me,"What's that?" and having my rough draft of this story in my hand I told her,"It's this story I'm writing if a girl I really like" as she said how cool and interesting,she then said,"I'm heart broken.". For a moment I thought in mind,may e because she's not he girl I'm writing about,but instead she said after I asked why,"because the guy I had a crush on,has a girlfriend." I then thought,well I got good news I have a crush on you but instead I said,"AWww."

Now thinking about it she walked slow today usually she always walks rapidly. She was heart broken and I felt defenseless because I couldn't do anything to make her feel better,she had the rose no more,she had placed it in her left breast shirt pocket. I wish I was a boy if I was I would ask her to be with me and make her smile look so gracious like usual. But I'm not OH WELL!

-------what a turn!!