Her lovely ways

Murky smiles

April was here and now everyday I looked for Camelia to just say hello and see her agin. I gave her a letter for the first time. I wrote how lovely she was and how smoothingly gorgeous she looks when she wears red lipstick,kissable delights. She was intrigued to have recieved a letter. The next day I walked her to class. On Wednesday I wrote her another letter. Maybe I wrote too much,I described her beauty and told her if she weren't into guys,she would be my tea heaven and a delicious white chocolate,both of which I love. After that I felt a line apart from us,but it's my fault for not keeping my feelings a secret. Thursday,I went to buy my birthday dress with KC and Dayz. For the first time ,as I was only in my knickers and a t-shirt,KC came close helping me put the outfits on the hanger,her closure made me want to kiss her and let our temptations be craved,but Dayz was the rescue to another a wrong move. Finally,out of five dresses I stayed with a torqouise dress with pockets,who doesn't like pockets? I straighten my short curly hair and then waited for one more day until my birthday.

I was expecting a lot,Camelia did say I looked nice,but i felt like that day it wasn't enough. Emma didn't wish me happy birthday,making me anxious for the weekend to pass and Monday to come so she can wish me a happy birthday,even if it was late.

Saturday,awakend by hits and kisses and roses and many happy 18th birthday. The day went by and my family and I celebrated my birthday at a chuck-e-cheese like place,but a lot better than chuck-e-cheese. Camelia called while we were on the way to the place and just hearing her voice made me happier and made me feel loved. We spoke on the way to our destination and she just wanted to know my interest in books and poetry and so I told her about my favorite movie 'loving Annabelle' and an interesting book I read. We arrived,and I thought how it would've gone if Camelia came along to celebrate my birthday.

We were finally home with exhaustion,laughter,and a still- not-cut cake with white chocolate shavings and eatable flowers and a red 18 on it. I thought still of Camelia and wondered if I should've called her to invite her over Sunday,but I didn't,instead I procrastinated and thought it was too late and she might not want to talk.

Sunday I cleaned,ate,and felt blue,Emma hasn't yet wished me a happy birthday.

I decided to ask Camelia to the pool and for a piece of cake. Listening to her again made me smile,she wasn't able to join. I called her again to tell her if she was ever bored,she can just call me,I might answer. Yet again I felt as if I annoyed someone else for the second time. Now,I wait and I don't just look for a text but for a missed call.

Monday arrived,still a little glum. Arrived at school and it was really cold. Camelia dressed as my present so she didn't have to give me one,her friendship was my present. She wore red lipstick and looked kissable with a flaming,glorious laughter. First period arrived and Emma went up for her scene,I couldn't stop thinking how down I was because she didn't say happy birthday. I was so confused and I felt gullible because once she sat down I felt as if she was staring at me 'trying to look for something',but I didn't turn to show myself that she wasn't actually looking my way.

The cold dusty day went by after. School was over for the day and as I walked with Junie and AJ and a best friend of my sisters,Anna,Camelia ran towards us unexpectedly and she was cold. I wish I had a sweater to give her and keep her warm I had nothing so instead I offers her a hug,she hesitated a bit and then finally said ok, I gave her a hug. I would sometimes tell myself how I wish I can keep her because she was so loving,sweet,passionate,and carefully intriguing. I let her go and as she told me,"You're warm",then I told her,"Your dress feels soft". Now thinking about it I'm so weird and lost,but I had no one to ask for advice on how to get her or how to not creep her out. I guess I'll learn from my mistakes.

------hey y'all next chapter might take a while,maybe it'll be out on Sunday.... poor Robbin is so confused and looks like she doesn't know which way to go. Things are about to change for her or will they......

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