We met because of Jack>> sidemen fanfic

//Twenty Three\\

It had been about four days since the funeral and to my surprise I was doing okay, I thought that I would be an emotional wreck but seeing as I did all of that after Jack had died I did calm down quite a lot, Sarah and Freya came round nearly every day just to see if I was okay which did appreciate but they were treating me like I was made out of China and I was getting sick of it I had enough of that from Cal when he did the same thing, when he came to visit and take care of me after Jack's death. Simon was calling my phone trying to get me to talk but that was the last thing that I wanted to do, especially with him he would also try and get Cal to persuade me to talk to him but realistically I think he knew that Cal wouldn't do that to me I do admire his perseverance but I just can't get over the fact that he left me when I needed him the most. I know that I did ask him to leave but I didn't expect him to leave America and for him to then not answer any of my calls when I was crying so much asking, not even that begging him to come and comfort me it shocked that he wouldn't considering at that time he was meant to be my boyfriend although I did think that maybe he was ignoring me because he could've just been listening to my voicemail that I was leaving him and hearing how distraught I was and still not bothering to pick up the phone to call and talk to me; I didn't even get a simple text saying something like 'I can't fly out right now but as soon as I can I promise I will see you' I didn't even get that and he was meant to be my boyfriend who loved me and I would tell him that I loved him and for me to use them words was hard because I had been messed around in the past by boys and I truly thought that Simon would be different but I was obviously wrong the only person who didn't mess me around was Cal he was the one who treated me right and always has. He's not even my boyfriend and he treats me like I am his girlfriend he comes and sees me everyday and spends the day with me sometimes even the night and I couldn't thank him enough for that, I guess there is always something I so feel towards to Cal like whenever I see him I get a twinge in my heart and I feel sick but not in a bad way it's more of a restlessness and fluttering butterfly feeling that I get when I either hear from him  or just get a simple test off of him and the way he makes me feel when I actually see him is out of this world and I just can't put it into words I guess all I can really say is that I think I still like Cal.

It was three in the morning and I could hear loud noises coming from Cal's flat and me being curious I wanted to go and see what it was so I grabbed a jumper and put on my converse shoes, grabbing my phone and glasses as I walked over to my bedroom door; walking through the living room and out the flat door making sure that I leave it on the latch so I could get back inside. I get inside the elevator and press the floor number literally taking ten seconds to get there I step out and walk down the hall and I knock on the door waiting for someone to answer, and quite quickly a girl with shoulder length ginger hair answered the door and I had never ever seen her before so I was quite taken back when I saw her there but obviously she was one of Cal's 'girls' as Harry calls them but he said that none of them have ever stayed the night so this girl must be a pretty big deal for him if she's here early in the morning but then again they're arguing
"Iris, why are you here?" She asked
"To see Cal." I say
"Course you are. Cal your shadow is here!" She calls out and then I see Cal step out from behind the front door
"What is it Iris?" He asked me
"I could hear shouting and I just wondered if you are okay." I replied
"Well I am so there's nothing to worry about." He said  grumpily
"Are we done here or does Iris need some confirmation that you're alright." The girl said with a sarcastic tone
"Well I'm done are you Iris?" Cal asked
"Y-yeah done." I said a little shaken by the way that Cal was acting with me
"Great." He said as he closed the door practically hitting me in the face, I leaned my head up against it carefully and whispered 'I like you so much' I waited for a few seconds in hope that Cal would've heard what I had said and opened the door to see me but of course that didn't happen we have to talk realistically here, all that happened was that I went home and lied in bed pondering on my strong feelings for Cal.