Barely Alive // TWD // Daryl Dixon

Chapter 37 - Not Too Late

"Maybe we needed to break a little, so we could put ourselves back together more beautifully than before."

- Leah Raeder, Cam Girl

When we got back, I noticed Abraham and Rosita were still trying to fix the bus and Rick and his group were already back.

"What did you find?" Rick asked us as we all approached him.

"Pretty much nothing," I told him.

"Three silencers," Tara said as she took them out of her pocked and showed them to Rick.

"Something is something," he said, his disappointment showed. "No food or water?"

"Nope," I said.

"We found a lot of food," Rick told us. "But we are so many people, it could last only a few weeks. We still need some formula for Judith, we are running out of it."

"I volunteer to go on a run tomorrow," I said quickly. "Maybe I can find a pharmacy or even a house where I could get some."

"Maybe, we'll see what happens, let's discuss that once everyone is back."

Since I didn't have a good night sleep because of the nightmares, I was very tired. I went inside, lied down on the floor, by a corner after I got my backpack to use it as a pillow. I told Glenn and Maggie where I was going to be if they needed me.

I did sleep for around three hours and it helped me a lot, but the way I was woken up wasn't nice. Judith's cries. I groaned, I tried to cover my ears but it was no use, I was already awake. I pushed off a small blanket, I stood up and stretched. I looked to my left and saw Rick changing her diaper, while my mother was preparing her bottle.

Without them noticing me, I walked out of the church. I saw Tara, talking to Abraham and Rosita, who finally had taken a break from fixing the bus or maybe they had already fixed it. I also saw Carl, he was with Daryl. Carl was telling him some kind of story, I could tell because of Carl's gestures and the shining in his eyes, while Daryl mostly just nodded or asked something every once in a while.

"You okay?"

I jumped and turned around quickly to find Sasha. She had a frown in her face as she looked right into my eyes. I blinked some times before nodding at her.

"You look a bit pale," she told me. "And you haven't been yourself lately."

"I guess I just haven't been eating and sleeping well but I'm good," I said. "No need to worry."

"We saved you some food by the way," Sasha told me. "Glenn told us to not wake you up unless it was necessary."

"Yeah, I was very tired. I'll go eat in a bit, thank you."

She smiled at me before joining Bob once again. She sat next to him and kissed him on the lips, when they pulled away, they both had big smiles. I felt how my stomach twisted as I watched the happy couple, and then looked at Daryl, who was smiling at Carl, but he didn't look truly happy.

I looked down at the ground, feeling more alone than ever and also guilty. I knew he was being honest with me but with everything that was going on I guess I just needed some time. I wasn't really angry at him, but I needed to be angry at someone. What happened to me after the prison was just something that happened, and I was upset at the universe and 'destiny' for that but since I really needed to get my anger out on something, to focus on something that I could actually see and even touch, I guess I was just targeting Daryl for what Beth did, and taking my anger out on him for everything, even when it wasn't fair on him.

I was going straight to him when I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned around, expecting to see Sasha again but instead I saw my mother. I took a deep breath after I saw the look on her face.