Barely Alive // TWD // Daryl Dixon

Chapter 15 - Listening To The Heart

"Only love of a good woman will make a man question every choice, every action.

Only love makes a warrior hesitate for fear that his lady will find him cruel.

Only love makes a man both the best he will ever be, and the weakest.

Sometimes all in the same moment. -Wicked "

– Laurell K. Hamilton

Daryl's POV

Three more weeks passed, things at the prison were almost as good as they were before the virus spread, which was seven weeks ago, luckily no one else got sick and the sick ones recovered entirely, including Glenn and Cecilia.

Speaking of her, she had gotten better, mentally. I had made sure to not let her slip and now time has also helped. Things improved a bit when she was informed that Sean was gone, he was killed not long after she said she wanted him gone.

Rick and I talked about the way to go for days, we just didn't want to put a bullet in his brain and end his misery just like that, we wanted him to suffer until his last breath so we actually decided to feed him to the walkers after cutting his dick off and then we killed those walkers and just left him there to suffer and after a while, we finally killed Sean, who had parts of him missing but he was still alive after the walkers took bites of him. We decided to not let him turn in case Cecilia could see him, that would probably make her lose all the progress she had made lately.

Currently, I watched the blonde that was across the room, she was talking to Rick, both had smiles on their faces. Anyone could think that she was completely back to normal, that she was perfectly okay but I knew she was still affected.

She has been trying to never be alone, if I'm not around she looks for Michonne, Rick, Maggie or Glenn or even Sasha, sticking close to us. She has been asked to help killing the walkers through the fence but she always refuses, not wanting to go near other people, not even when we are around, she also has avoided being too close to the gate, fearing she can be taken again.

I'm glad she's being cautious but she's being paranoid. It had gotten to the point that she doesn't even go to the bathroom alone, she doesn't go showering if someone is not there guarding the door, she always asks a girl to be there, especially Michonne.

Today Rick and I were going on a run, when Cecilia found out she wanted really bad to come with us and she begged both of us to let her come along but I couldn't let her come, not this time. We argued for about twenty minutes until she just stormed out of my cell and spent the rest of the morning with Michonne, Rick and Glenn, even trying to persuade Rick to let her come but he told her he needed her to take care of Carl in his absence.

I knew Cecilia was terrified of being left alone because of what happened the last time I went on a run and she stayed, it made me a bit uneasy as well but I trusted Maggie, Glenn and Michonne, I knew they wouldn't let anything bad to happen to her, especially if they were around her all the time.

I went for my arrows, crossbow and gun and my backpack, we were going to leave in ten minutes. When I went down the stairs again I caught Cecilia already looking at me, she looked away as I reached the bottom of the stairs and said something to Michonne, who was in front of her.

"I'll borrow her for a second," I muttered as I put my hand on Cecilia's back and guided her a few steps away from Michonne.

When we got to the corner of the room, Cecilia leant her back against the grey wall, she crossed her arms and almost glared at me as her blue eyes looked into my own, I sighed, hating her to be upset at me, especially when I hadn't done anything wrong.