Barely Alive // TWD // Daryl Dixon

Chapter 39 - Confrontations

"You learned to run from what you feel, and that's why you have nightmares.

To deny is to invite madness. To accept is to control."

– Megan Chance, The Spiritualist

Present time

It was nice to wake up in Daryl's arms once again, I smiled when I realized I used him as a pillow the night before and he had an arm around my waist. I curled even closer to him.

I was about to fall asleep again when I felt Daryl slightly moving, I looked up at him just when he opened his breath-taking sky blue eyes. He smiled at me.

"Hi, love," he mumbled in a very raspy, sleepy voice.

"Love?" I commented, he had never called me that.

He said nothing to me, instead he kissed the top of my head as I wrapped my arm even tighter around him. Daryl closed his eyes again, not being ready to wake up yet.

Nobody really bothered us for a while, everyone was already awake, going in and out of the church and talking to each other, making a lot of noise, making it impossible for Daryl and I to go back to sleep. I sighed and stood up, even when Daryl tried to hold me closer to him.

"We need to wake up," I said to him just before I pecked his lips. "Everyone is already up."

I stood up and offered both my hands to Daryl, he took them and I helped him up. Once he was up he kissed my forehead and then he stretched. I had fallen asleep before eating so this morning I was starving. Daryl and I were the only ones that hadn't eaten.

Abraham still wasn't done fixing the bus so we were stuck in this church until he could fix it, and then go to Washington, so the most time it takes to fix that bus the better for me, I didn't want to go there.

Since we had time to waste, the others wanted to go on runs and see if we could find something else, and Rick and I had talked the day before about getting some formula for Judith, Rick really needed some quickly.

As a matter of fact, Glenn, Sasha Bob and Tara had already left, somewhere more east than we did yesterday, hopefully today it would be better.

Tyreese was going to stay today as well with Carl, Mika and Judith. That left Daryl, my mum, Maggie, Rick and I for another run. After Daryl and I finished our breakfast, Rick informed us Maggie was going to stay too but to watch Gabriel, whom Rick didn't trust yet, and he decided it was best to split up to cover more ground. I actually believed he was going to say he was going to go with my mum but he said Daryl and him were going while I was stuck with my mother. I just gave him a look, after yesterday I didn't want to be alone with my mum, I didn't want to talk about things.

I did tell Rick I could go with him or Daryl but he didn't change his mind. He went to say good-bye to Carl and Judith and left with Daryl.

Yesterday we focused on the stores, today my mum and I were going to look inside houses. As we got to our destination with the help of a map drew by Gabriel, we wasted no time going inside the first house, where we found some crackers and cereal.

The atmosphere was tense between my mother and I, and all I wanted was to get this done quickly so I could get away from her, I knew she wanted to talk, but she was being a hypocrite. She wanted to discuss things that had happened to me, my issues, not what had happened to her, she refused to talk about that, she hadn't said what happened to Lizzie, or Axel or anything.

We searched six more houses in complete silence, and we had found some food, just some formula and two bags of diapers and I changed my shirt for a clean one and got some hair ties, I had had it down for weeks and it was annoying, so I wasted no time to put my hair in a high ponytail.