Hayley's POV
{Two Months Earlier...}
I forced down another handful of Xanax, my tears uncontrollable at the moment. I sat on my bed with my phone in one hand, and my journal in my lap. I don't remember much of what I had wrote in my text message to Taylor, but heartache was getting the best of me, recalling the morning I left Taylor. I hated the burning image if his teary eyes in my mind.
"I thought that it wouldn't hurt you as much if I was gone," I choked as I wrote the words down on the paper, my tears falling on the words, letting the ink bleed. I sent the message to Taylor, trying to calm my sobs.
I could only be happy if I was no longer here. Happiness was not in this world. But I was wrong. Taylor was what made me happy; Taylor was who made happy. But he couldn't deal with my wrecked life. Hell, I couldn't deal with it. Death was my only way out of it.
My phone rang next to me. I looked at it, finding Taylor's smiling picture on the screen. I took a few deep breaths to try and cover my cries.
"York," I answered, my voice still shaky. "Hey."
"Whatever you're doing, stop it right now," he said.
"Taylor, love, I can't," I whimpered. "I can't live like this anymore. Promise you'll carry on."
"Hayley, I can't if you're gone! I need you here!" I heard him break into sobs. I couldn't bear to hear his agony, making me cry more. "I need you here with me, please!"
"You're strong, Taylor York," I said, forcing a smile on my lips. "You can carry on without me, I'm sure."
"Hayley, no!"
"York, I have to go," I cried. "I love you so much. I really do, honey. Stay here for me."
I quickly hung up and curled into myself as I sobbed harder. I pressed my pen against my journal's open page and forced myself to write, though it was hard to see with the tears blurring my vision.
I'm sorry, Taylor York...
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The Renegade Diaries
Fanfiction{Warning: Can be triggering to some.} After two months have passed since Hayley's death, Taylor York has forced himself to try to move on with his life. When he goes to Hayley's house to clean it out, a note is left for him by Hayley, herself, telli...
