Promises are meant to be broken

Chapter 8

*Jenna's pov *

That night I couldn't sleep. It was full of twisting and turning. Everything that came creeping into my mind seemed to stab my heart hundreds of times over and over again. I finally got sick of it and dicided to listen to music. I put my head phones on and blasted Lana Del Rey. Few minutes later I fell asleep.

~Dream~

"Dad?" I screamed tears running down my face.

"What?" he shouted, venom in his voice.

"I..I love you" I smiled , I've never said it before to him.

He chuckled. "What? You expect me to say it back? alright. I 'love' you. Do I mean it? Nope. I never did."

Tears brimmed my eyes once again

How could he? He's said it a million times before...

"Oh Jenna" he chuckled once again.

"Don't you ever learn? Guess not. Your parents didn't love you. Your best friends didn't love you. You expect me to 'love' you? after everyone else who said they have left you? Oh no, love. Get out of here. No one wants you. You're unlovable."

~dream over~

I gasped for air when I woke up. I looked at the clock. "5:37 am" I whispered to myself. I sighed loudly and just sat on the edge of my bed. Was that dream trying to tell me something? Would Simon leave me? Kick me out and tell me I'm unlovable? ugh. I need to stop this. Its driving me crazy.

I went downstairs to get a glass of water. "ugh I have a headache" I murmerd to myself.

"Here, this will help"

"AHHHHHH!!" I screamed fear taking overy body.

"Shhhhh!!!! Jenna! its only me!" a british accent whisper shouted to me. "fuck. Louis?" I questioned the suspicious boy.

He chuckled. "Yes sorry, love. Didn't mean to startle you" he grinned.

"You people always seem to 'not mean' what they do" I whispered.

"What was that ?" Louis asked.

"nothing, nothing" I shaked my head.

"What are you doing down here? Shouldn't you be sleeping?" Louis questioned while taking some milk out of the fridge. "Couldn't sleep" I answered, not really wanting to talk.

"ah..oh! um you had a headache right?" He asked while looking around the floor. I nodded. "here this will help" he gave me two pills. I took them without water. I've always liked to take pills without water or something. I don't see how water helps really, I've never needed it for pills before.

"Sooo..." Louis said trailing off. I knew he was gonna ask about Simon. I just knew it. He was gonna try to open me up. But I'm a closed book.

"hmm" was all that same out of my mouth. " How are you and Simon?" And there it is.

I was gonna answer him but he quickly added on "You don't have to tell me! I just want to be your friend." he smiled. awwh mann I was gonna go all ape shit on his ass.....now he ruined it. I have to be nice back.

I sighed. "same place we left of this afternoon"  I said quietly looking at my feet.

"oh...Jenna?" he said making me look up at him. "yeah?" I asked sniffling.

"Its okay to cry, love" he tried convincing me. No its not. It shows weakness. I'm not weak. Am I?

I stayed silent. Just nodded.

"um Jenna.. You should go to sleep. Me and the boys have a suprise for you and your friends in the morning." he said grinning at the idea of their 'surprise.'

"alright. Good night Louis." I hugged him. Wait what? Why am I hugging him? I just met him. I know I've been a directioner from ever since I can remember but...I've never trusted someone so quickly. Its just with Louis it fits so naturally. Like I know he'll always be on my side. I just hope it stays this way.

I was on my way upstairs when Louis called my name once again.

"Before I forget to tell you. There's a few boys quite taken with you and your friends" he winked and left to his room.

hehehe that's someting Rose will definetly enjoy.

*Morning*

*Jenna's pov*

"awwww she sleeps like a puppy"

"nooo like a baby deer"

"nooo! like a peacful unicorn"

"Don't be ridicilous Lou! That doesn't even exsist!"

"psh she sleeps like a baby leprexhaun"

Dafuq? Who dares wake me up from my slumber?!?!?!

"Get. Out." I said anger coming through my voice. I am NOT morning person. Emphises on the 'NOT'.

"Sorryyy Jenna...No can do! We have a suprise for you guys and we can't say anything until you come down stairs to!" I heard what I think was Liam say.

"ughhh fine get out first I need to change." With that the boys left and I got prepared.

Oh please lord. Let this be a good surprise.

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