BORROWED TIME || J.JK

••×e n t r y 18ו•

••×e n t r y 18ו•

[Dear Jungkook,
I'm still hoping it's you and me in the end.]

AUTHOR's POV.

You mumbled angrily, chewing your cup noodles harshly as the memory of your chat with Jungkook last night crossed your focused mind once again.

You hated the idea of him still remembering you and his memory five years ago, yet doesn't show much care about it. You decided to yourself, not to tell him that it was you. . . the girl he was searching for, but stopped because he don't even know why he was finding you. You hated the idea of him, hesitant if he was going to say he liked you then or just messing with your feelings. You were angry and fuming the whole night you chatted with him.

You thought, you'd be happy when he at least talked to you, but you were wrong. Turns out you got raging mad at him for being so dense and not careful. But of course! Why would he be careful? He don't even know you, he don't even know you're the girl from the past he was talking about! He thought you just got the same name as her. . . he thought you're not the girl he forgot about and just dated another girl because he can't find you and don't even remember your name anymore!

You're a nothing to him now.

You regretted ever making him slip away from your grasp five years ago. You hated yourself for not being selfish that time. If you only knew that this would happen, that he liked you then, that he'd still date someone behind his fans back, you could've taken the opportunity. Then maybe, just maybe. . . you'd be the girl he was holding, kissing and laughing with right now.

But of course, those were just your 'maybe's' and 'what if's'... In the end of the day, you knew you cannot take him all to yourself. You can dream, but dreams had boundaries. "Well. . . at least he's happy with her."

You mumbled bitterly, shoving another mouthful of spicy noodles inside your mouth, but it hasn't even been chewed well when your phone's chat notification popped again.

Shock registered your face, seeing Jungkook's user name requesting for a private chat. You hesitate, chatting back or not. You can say you're mad and angry and all at him, but a side from you still wanted to continue chatting with him.

With a long sigh, you click the chat head and tapped on your phone.

+TALKUE TALKUE CHAT APP+

BigKookie: Hey Y/N :D

English Torturer: hey

BigKookie: am I bothering you?

English Torturer: yes (not sent)
English Torturer: no, why?

BigKookie: nothing... I saw your chat head online. Its midnight
BigKookie: aren't u gonna sleep yet

English Torturer: no... Not yet

BigKookie: hmm why?

English Torturer: I'm eating outside

BigKookie: huh! but its late
BigKookie: a maiden shouldn't be out late at night

English Torturer: I'm hungry and I needed air

BigKookie: that reminds me of someone

English Torturer: who?