BORROWED TIME || J.JK

••×e n t r y 20ו•

••×e n t r y 20ו•

[Dear Jungkook,
Night time should be for sleeping. Why are you always invading my thoughts at night? Could you fucking keep yourself to yourself!?]

AUTHOR's POV.

Weeks had past like a blur, it is now your second month working as an English tutor for the soon to debute idol group. Your month has been heaven and hell. Yet you know you cannot complain about anything, since the company gives you enough money, even though working for five bratty kids ain't fun and to see the person you love loving someone else is painful... You decided to stay and complete your three month contract.

Your feelings for Jungkook is like a roller coaster ride which turns you up side down. Flipping your heart and making a lot of skipping beats, but also knows how to sink the invisible stabbing knives into your chest every time he gets too close and touchy to his girl. He was too sweet to her that you couldn't help but to wish that you were on her place instead.

Jungkook continued on chatting you and befriending you for no particular reason. He would always bother you and ask you out late night to vandalize with him. He wasn't cheating on his girlfriend nor forming feelings for you, no. He just needed to be with someone who can jive with his fun and do stuffs that is cool. Well, he finds you cool and very comfortable to be with, he was always enjoying your company. He'd always feel like he really knew you somewhere deep within his heart. He never used you to be an excuse to get away from his girlfriend, in fact. . . she was always the first person the both of you would talk about during late nights (not that you talk about her, but he talks about her.) He loved her so much that you already know that it was impossible for him to grow even the tiniest feelings for you. And you already accepted that fact, though what keeps you from being attached to him now was because you thought; moments doesn't last forever, so enjoy and make the best of it now.

Jungkook won't be there with you forever, you knew that after a month or so. . . you'd leave the company and start your business, you knew that he won't be by your side every time. If he has to be with someone's side always, that's his girlfriend. The girl he was planning to marry and was asking you about how to make their wedding perfect. He would never be there for you after that. Saying that being his friend and close to him somehow now, is what you're holding to. You just want to stay for a little while and savor the teeny tiny little time he gives you. To sense and feel his presence by your side despite of. You knew every morning you'll have to cry because it always felt like a dream every night he talks and hang out with you, waking up without him by your side in the morning just after both of you had a lot of fun last night.
You have to stay strong and think positive thinking; at least he's with you for the mean time. At least it happened being this close to him. At least he's talking to you. At least he knew you exist. At least you have a tiny little name at one part of his brain. At least, even though these happiness you feel would always have an ending, it felt somehow sweet at the beginning. You were just thankful for this moment given to you.

"Yah!" A voice snapped you form your deep thoughts, as a pouting Z glares at you.

"What do you want?" You asked him, chewing a chocolate chip lifelessly.

"I said, I'm done with the test. Can I go home now?" He asked.

It was late already and his manager told you to give him a test as punishment for playing around during practice.

Seeing his fully answered test paper, you briefly nodded and shooed him away with your gesturing hands.

He jokingly scoffed as he mumbled few words, "Keep on thinking and staring at Jungkook hyung, he'd really knew and think you're obviously having a big crush on him."